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Tonight I gave this Mexican guy at work a ride home. It was cool getting to talk to him outside of work. I felt really bad for him though. He had a girlfriend in Mexico City and he came here to make money to send home to her, and the girl cheated on him and she just got married. And he was also talking about how he only has like 4 friends here, and he lives with 3 of them. Poor guy.
There are so many people in this world that I wish had better lives. They truly deserve it.. They have such good hearts.
I have the day off tomorrow. I'm really excited. I think I might go shopping; it's been at least 6 months since I've bought new clothes for myself.
Do you ever anticipate a situation for months? Like you know it's just inevitable and you run it through your head a million times with every different possible scenario.. And yet you kind of just know what will happen. And a part of you tells you otherwise, but that gut feeling just KNOWS how it will turn out. And then it happens, and you are absolutely right.
At least now I know the truth. Or so I think. And while it doesn't make me feel THAT much better.. it helps. To at least know that I wasn't crazy for feeling like I did.
Dustin (one of my FL boys) might be coming to visit June 23-26. I'm super stoked, because I miss all those guys. I've seen Dustin the most recently, but he is just such a wonderful person. He's like a distant brother to me, I guess you could say. I would visit them in Florida if it weren't for getting time off of work and hoping I get on the flights to FL.
I have my birthday (Friday) off.. And possibly Saturday too. I'm missing out on big money-making nights at work, so I'll have to make up for it by doing something really fun. I hope it works out and I don't set myself up for disappointment. I think I always expect too much out of birthdays.
My best friend still hasn't called me. It's been almost two weeks. Granted, she's not my only best friend.. But she's definitely in the top 3. I don't know if she just knows that I'm upset with her, and doesn't want to face me.. Or if she is truly ok with the fact that we haven't spoken for this long and we live in the same neighborhood. It really sucks. I don't know how her job is going, or what's new in her life, and while I actually care about that stuff, it makes me wonder.. Does she care what I'm up to? What's new with me? Or is she just completely absorbed with her own life, and her boyfriend, and all of that?
I don't know. What will really piss me off though is if she doesn't call me until Friday, and then conveniently decides to pick up the phone for a "birthday call". Fuck that. I don't want her to call because she feels like she has to.
That's the problem with birthdays, I think. I'm just as guilty as anyone though. We just call each other on birthdays, but why can't we just call on some random day? To say "hey, I'm thinking about you and I hope you're doing alright".
I'm still trying to plan my trip(s) for the summer, and I think I keep trying to plan them in July but I'm overlapping dates and I just don't think it's going to happen. Haha.
Guys really confuse me right now. There are suddenly three dateable guys in my life, yet there is an obvious reason why I shouldn't date any of them. I probably will continue to do nothing, and just go on a few dates and have a fun summer and not get serious.. But there is still one in particular that I keep thinking about, and that's a bit problematic. Part of me feels like we picked up right where we left off, which is bad, because "where we left off" was a perfectly good relationship that was eventually shot to hell. And the other part of me is still hurting because of what he did, and I'm not entirely sure if I can get over that. I had justified his actions in my mind, in a certain way, in order to help me deal with it. And suddenly I have to see them in a different light, and thats hard to adjust to. Damnit. Why are things more difficult than they need to be?
Right now I'm reading Tucker Max's book, I Hope They Serve Beer In Hell. It's good, some parts are funnier than others, some are the overrated stories from his website. It's entertaining though, so it serves it's purpose. After that, I'm reading One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest. I just kind of "found" it on accident, so I don't really know if it will be good. But I hope so.
I need a new job during the day. Does anyone have any ideas, or know of any openings anywhere? OTB is great at night, but it's just not cutting it during the lunch shifts.
I heard that cilantro is a genetic thing.
I also heard that every 7 years your taste buds change.
And that your allergies change every 7 years as well.
I know the first one is true, who knows about the others. The 3rd one is weird because I was just thinking the other day that I haven't been on my allergy medication in months, and I'm fine. And this is allergy season, I think. I've been on allergy pills for so long, I can't even remember, and everytime I go off of them, I get sick. So I can't figure out why I'm not sneezing and sniffling at all.
Sometimes I think that writing in here is incredibly pointless and I just want to get rid of it. But then I talk myself out of it. One day I won't.
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kelly.
There are so many people in this world that I wish had better lives. They truly deserve it.. They have such good hearts.
I have the day off tomorrow. I'm really excited. I think I might go shopping; it's been at least 6 months since I've bought new clothes for myself.
Do you ever anticipate a situation for months? Like you know it's just inevitable and you run it through your head a million times with every different possible scenario.. And yet you kind of just know what will happen. And a part of you tells you otherwise, but that gut feeling just KNOWS how it will turn out. And then it happens, and you are absolutely right.
At least now I know the truth. Or so I think. And while it doesn't make me feel THAT much better.. it helps. To at least know that I wasn't crazy for feeling like I did.
Dustin (one of my FL boys) might be coming to visit June 23-26. I'm super stoked, because I miss all those guys. I've seen Dustin the most recently, but he is just such a wonderful person. He's like a distant brother to me, I guess you could say. I would visit them in Florida if it weren't for getting time off of work and hoping I get on the flights to FL.
I have my birthday (Friday) off.. And possibly Saturday too. I'm missing out on big money-making nights at work, so I'll have to make up for it by doing something really fun. I hope it works out and I don't set myself up for disappointment. I think I always expect too much out of birthdays.
My best friend still hasn't called me. It's been almost two weeks. Granted, she's not my only best friend.. But she's definitely in the top 3. I don't know if she just knows that I'm upset with her, and doesn't want to face me.. Or if she is truly ok with the fact that we haven't spoken for this long and we live in the same neighborhood. It really sucks. I don't know how her job is going, or what's new in her life, and while I actually care about that stuff, it makes me wonder.. Does she care what I'm up to? What's new with me? Or is she just completely absorbed with her own life, and her boyfriend, and all of that?
I don't know. What will really piss me off though is if she doesn't call me until Friday, and then conveniently decides to pick up the phone for a "birthday call". Fuck that. I don't want her to call because she feels like she has to.
That's the problem with birthdays, I think. I'm just as guilty as anyone though. We just call each other on birthdays, but why can't we just call on some random day? To say "hey, I'm thinking about you and I hope you're doing alright".
I'm still trying to plan my trip(s) for the summer, and I think I keep trying to plan them in July but I'm overlapping dates and I just don't think it's going to happen. Haha.
Guys really confuse me right now. There are suddenly three dateable guys in my life, yet there is an obvious reason why I shouldn't date any of them. I probably will continue to do nothing, and just go on a few dates and have a fun summer and not get serious.. But there is still one in particular that I keep thinking about, and that's a bit problematic. Part of me feels like we picked up right where we left off, which is bad, because "where we left off" was a perfectly good relationship that was eventually shot to hell. And the other part of me is still hurting because of what he did, and I'm not entirely sure if I can get over that. I had justified his actions in my mind, in a certain way, in order to help me deal with it. And suddenly I have to see them in a different light, and thats hard to adjust to. Damnit. Why are things more difficult than they need to be?
Right now I'm reading Tucker Max's book, I Hope They Serve Beer In Hell. It's good, some parts are funnier than others, some are the overrated stories from his website. It's entertaining though, so it serves it's purpose. After that, I'm reading One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest. I just kind of "found" it on accident, so I don't really know if it will be good. But I hope so.
I need a new job during the day. Does anyone have any ideas, or know of any openings anywhere? OTB is great at night, but it's just not cutting it during the lunch shifts.
I heard that cilantro is a genetic thing.
I also heard that every 7 years your taste buds change.
And that your allergies change every 7 years as well.
I know the first one is true, who knows about the others. The 3rd one is weird because I was just thinking the other day that I haven't been on my allergy medication in months, and I'm fine. And this is allergy season, I think. I've been on allergy pills for so long, I can't even remember, and everytime I go off of them, I get sick. So I can't figure out why I'm not sneezing and sniffling at all.
Sometimes I think that writing in here is incredibly pointless and I just want to get rid of it. But then I talk myself out of it. One day I won't.
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kelly.