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You know what irks me? When people say things that they just want attention for. For example, when a guy says "I'm just having trouble with girls lately. One girl just found out I inherited a fortune and is all over me now." I mean come on.. really?? You're talking about how annoyed you are that she is after your money, but really you're just milking it. And by pointing it out to me, it just makes it even worse. You think I really care if you inherited a fortune? It's not suddenly going to make me like you, and even if I did, why would you want that? So why tell me? Does it make you feel better to repeat to yourself and others that you have money now? Because it doesn't make the rest of the people you talk to feel better.
Ugh. Sometimes people need to keep things to themselves.
Brandon Robles brought up self-fulfilling prophecy today, and I had been thinking about that earlier. I really believe that. For example, I still have not started my English paper. Yeah. And in my mind, I think of a million reasons why, but I know that the only real reason is because I suck at writing papers and I don't try to improve whatsoever.. So because I think that I'm so terrible, and won't even make an effort, it's hard to get started on something you think/know you are going to bomb.
I know. Brandon can learn to hypnotize me and teach me to get over everything that holds me back, and then one day I'll be rich and I'll give half my money to him!!! It's perfect.
No but really, I joke around about it, but I would love to start a business with him one day. We both kinda want to be psychologists, and we both love to write, and we help each other out a lot. I just figure we can create some kind of masterpiece if we just put our heads together, whether it's a book or a psychology practice or an reforming an under-developed country.. Haha. Who knows. We can do anything!! And if we can't, then we can sit around and drink beer and talk football and life and the opposite sex. Because that's what we do best anyway.
I wonder who I will keep in touch with when I'm older. And if I will ever be able to get over the fact that people simply HAVE to leave your life sometimes. I met someone at spring break 3 or 4 years ago, and we kept in touch for awhile, but suddenly we just lost it. And neither of us has really tried to get it back. And it didn't mean anything and it was just someone I met in spring break, but he still made me look at things differently, and I wish we still talked.
I love the color red. It's so passionate. I don't have enough red clothes but now that the holidays are here I think I'm going to buy some.
I like my name. I don't think I want to change it when I get married. I mean, I might.. but right now I don't think I want to.
And I want to be cremated. Every time I pass a damn graveyard, all I can think about is how many dead, rotting bodies are 6 feet deep under there just spread out. It's so morbid. And I feel like if I'm cremated, I'll be one with nature, and I love nature.
I wish I told better stories. I usually have really good ones but when I tell them in person they sound terrible and the person just looks at me funny and I'm embarrassed. Haha. Except Janee and Bethany, they always laugh at my stories and I don't really know why. Like Charlotte's a great storyteller because she has good impressions of people.
Sometimes I think of all the random phrases and words I pick up from the people I talk to. Like Brandon's "sore-ree", and Toni and Hannah's "I'm soooo annoyed", or Mike's "mabes" and "yoosh". Then there's Adam's "scoop you up" (like from the airport), and Karla's "legit" and "solid". Or "hey love" from my little, and Barnes' "gooood wooork" (you'd have to hear it).
I always call my dad for advice. Like if I need an opinion on something, or if I hurt myself, like today when I accidentally shaved a chunk out of my finger.. (BTW, I wasn't shaving my finger, I just grabbed my razor the wrong way.) I guess I just feel like he is a logical person and always has a good way of looking at things so as to make the smart decision.
I read an article today about a coach that seduced some girl on his basketball team and it reminded me of our gym teacher Mr. Crupi in middle school. I was young then, but I remember him always telling me I was very mature for my age, and stuff like that. I took it as a compliment and didn't think much of it, but now that I look back, it was a little creepy. And girls were like always hanging out in his office. He did end up getting fired for it or something, I don't remember if they had any evidence against him or if they just suspected something, but I know it happened.
This was a very random entry.
And I have to work in the morning.
I'm scared again. I just am afraid I'll mess up, or that tons of new people will be working there and it won't be the same.. I dunno. Haha but I did get a text message from my Mexican friend G the other day that says:
"Iam startto miisyou" haha..
It took a minute to figure out who it was but I made the connection. He probably got my number off the board at work, which should probably creep me out but he is just very nice to me and he knows I only think of him as a friend.
Anyway. Seriously. Bedtime.
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stretch armstrong.
p.s. Someone tagged a picture on facebook of my burnt foot from this weekend. I laughed sooo hard.. it looked much worse than I thought it did. So feel free to check it out if you want to see how I managed to do something that retarded..
Ugh. Sometimes people need to keep things to themselves.
Brandon Robles brought up self-fulfilling prophecy today, and I had been thinking about that earlier. I really believe that. For example, I still have not started my English paper. Yeah. And in my mind, I think of a million reasons why, but I know that the only real reason is because I suck at writing papers and I don't try to improve whatsoever.. So because I think that I'm so terrible, and won't even make an effort, it's hard to get started on something you think/know you are going to bomb.
I know. Brandon can learn to hypnotize me and teach me to get over everything that holds me back, and then one day I'll be rich and I'll give half my money to him!!! It's perfect.
No but really, I joke around about it, but I would love to start a business with him one day. We both kinda want to be psychologists, and we both love to write, and we help each other out a lot. I just figure we can create some kind of masterpiece if we just put our heads together, whether it's a book or a psychology practice or an reforming an under-developed country.. Haha. Who knows. We can do anything!! And if we can't, then we can sit around and drink beer and talk football and life and the opposite sex. Because that's what we do best anyway.
I wonder who I will keep in touch with when I'm older. And if I will ever be able to get over the fact that people simply HAVE to leave your life sometimes. I met someone at spring break 3 or 4 years ago, and we kept in touch for awhile, but suddenly we just lost it. And neither of us has really tried to get it back. And it didn't mean anything and it was just someone I met in spring break, but he still made me look at things differently, and I wish we still talked.
I love the color red. It's so passionate. I don't have enough red clothes but now that the holidays are here I think I'm going to buy some.
I like my name. I don't think I want to change it when I get married. I mean, I might.. but right now I don't think I want to.
And I want to be cremated. Every time I pass a damn graveyard, all I can think about is how many dead, rotting bodies are 6 feet deep under there just spread out. It's so morbid. And I feel like if I'm cremated, I'll be one with nature, and I love nature.
I wish I told better stories. I usually have really good ones but when I tell them in person they sound terrible and the person just looks at me funny and I'm embarrassed. Haha. Except Janee and Bethany, they always laugh at my stories and I don't really know why. Like Charlotte's a great storyteller because she has good impressions of people.
Sometimes I think of all the random phrases and words I pick up from the people I talk to. Like Brandon's "sore-ree", and Toni and Hannah's "I'm soooo annoyed", or Mike's "mabes" and "yoosh". Then there's Adam's "scoop you up" (like from the airport), and Karla's "legit" and "solid". Or "hey love" from my little, and Barnes' "gooood wooork" (you'd have to hear it).
I always call my dad for advice. Like if I need an opinion on something, or if I hurt myself, like today when I accidentally shaved a chunk out of my finger.. (BTW, I wasn't shaving my finger, I just grabbed my razor the wrong way.) I guess I just feel like he is a logical person and always has a good way of looking at things so as to make the smart decision.
I read an article today about a coach that seduced some girl on his basketball team and it reminded me of our gym teacher Mr. Crupi in middle school. I was young then, but I remember him always telling me I was very mature for my age, and stuff like that. I took it as a compliment and didn't think much of it, but now that I look back, it was a little creepy. And girls were like always hanging out in his office. He did end up getting fired for it or something, I don't remember if they had any evidence against him or if they just suspected something, but I know it happened.
This was a very random entry.
And I have to work in the morning.
I'm scared again. I just am afraid I'll mess up, or that tons of new people will be working there and it won't be the same.. I dunno. Haha but I did get a text message from my Mexican friend G the other day that says:
"Iam startto miisyou" haha..
It took a minute to figure out who it was but I made the connection. He probably got my number off the board at work, which should probably creep me out but he is just very nice to me and he knows I only think of him as a friend.
Anyway. Seriously. Bedtime.
<3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333
stretch armstrong.
p.s. Someone tagged a picture on facebook of my burnt foot from this weekend. I laughed sooo hard.. it looked much worse than I thought it did. So feel free to check it out if you want to see how I managed to do something that retarded..