Sep 14, 2005 23:26
i've been so exhausted lately. school and work are kicking my butt.
i went to jax and nsb last weekend and had a really great time. sunday night sucked. john and i are had our first "fight" but it wasn't really a fight, just emotions coming out when we were both drunk.
but it was bad, and we needed to get it out. in the end we are so much closer (which I'm all about). but it was rough getting through it. i was really hurt by his actions (or lack of) sunday night.. and i think i may have created some insecurities. ugh. but things are a lot better btw us because we talk about everything. who knew love could feel like such a double edged sword.
but anyways, i'm really enjoying my middle schoolers this year. they're not really eager to learn so i'm faced with a challenge. but individually they're all really great kids. just together, i can't get them to stop cutting each other down. and there are some kids who are just so lost when it comes to social skills. middle school is such an awkward stage of life. i remember it so vividly. buy i remember loving middle school and being faced with more social pressures in high school. who knows.
i really miss my friends. i feel like i don't get to see them as much since i go to jax or john comes here so often. oh well.
my dad said he would buy me a house in jax. but i'm not really sure what i want. i need to pull it together.
i have to go write an essay thats due tomorrow.
later kids.