Thanks for the kind words. Your icon is money, too. Gotta love the heel! I still can't believe anyone's heard of the Unicorns besides my group of friends!
I have to be a provider at some point, and that's what really urks me. I don't even make enough money to scrape by, how am I going to afford what lies in the future?
I was thinking exactly that today and freaking myself out too ... for me, it was the thought of children and all the things I'd want them to have. And, er, yes, this is coming from the one who said she'd never get married or have a family or all that because, hello, way too fucked up to contemplate fucking up a whole bunch of other people's lives. love makes you do the wacky. So yes, moment of throat choking panic.
But then, y'know what? Hold on just a second. Pull yourself back from the despair and tell yourself "It's MY fucking life, I Deserve to be happy. And I'm gonna be happy, no matter what life throws at me. Fuck you, life, just watch me do what I Want." You gotta find a way, man, be it with genuine hope or bloody minded stubbornness.
I really didn't mean to preach. Actually, I just meant to come over and hug ya.
Thanks. I'm glad that I'm not the only one having a quarter-life crisis. You're right. It is MY life. At the end of every day, I lie awake and think why didn't I take advantage of that situation. Or if I would have said something different I would have come off looking better. Then I think, right now ceilings all over the world are being stared at. Everybody is afraid of what they should have done. Moreso, that they'll never have the chance to redo what they've done wrong.
I just don't want to be one of those people anymore.
I don't want to come across as if I'm not happy. I've got loads to be happy about, and I swear the next journal I write is gonna be so sugary that you'll have to take insulin to read it. Tip your waitress, 'n try the veal...
One day, I hope to get a wedding invitiation from ya...
2 possibilities: 1) your a good guy (one of the goodest i knows) so good things will happen to you. you've spent your whole life working to make people happy, so in return you shall be happy. 2) you end up like that guy on the simpsons who works and works and works and the lazy guy next to you has a far better life and you get electrocuted (i cant believe thats the spelling) or something or other like that.
lets hope for number 1 eh?
keep your chin up hun, like always. i'll make you happy <3 xoxo
Re: Your FuturenitesFebruary 24 2005, 21:09:56 UTC
happier times --> aka tonight when we party hardy!!!
p.s. son-of-bitch?? shouldn't there be an 'a' somewhere there... and a crazy hungarian accent? mhmm.. thats what i thought FUNNY MAN!
p.p.s. it was good to hear you happy today (the many many times i called you/you called me even though its against the rules of your stupid work) mwaahaahaha hah ahaah hahah hah hahahaha) funny laugh eh? hmmm, theres no need for that last bracket... ( just to even things out :D
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your icon is love:)
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I still can't believe anyone's heard of the Unicorns besides my group of friends!
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i downloaded them there not bad
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Sorry, have I asked that before? Maybe I just saw the icon before and had the same wide eyed reaction ...
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"well i lift weights, but i don't sweat.
i go for a swim, but i don't get wet"
Genius. Pure, unadulterated, hooker-lovin' genius.
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haven't they broken up? *ducks*
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-Ana
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I was thinking exactly that today and freaking myself out too ... for me, it was the thought of children and all the things I'd want them to have. And, er, yes, this is coming from the one who said she'd never get married or have a family or all that because, hello, way too fucked up to contemplate fucking up a whole bunch of other people's lives. love makes you do the wacky. So yes, moment of throat choking panic.
But then, y'know what? Hold on just a second. Pull yourself back from the despair and tell yourself "It's MY fucking life, I Deserve to be happy. And I'm gonna be happy, no matter what life throws at me. Fuck you, life, just watch me do what I Want." You gotta find a way, man, be it with genuine hope or bloody minded stubbornness.
I really didn't mean to preach. Actually, I just meant to come over and hug ya.
*hugs*
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I'm glad that I'm not the only one having a quarter-life crisis. You're right. It is MY life. At the end of every day, I lie awake and think why didn't I take advantage of that situation. Or if I would have said something different I would have come off looking better. Then I think, right now ceilings all over the world are being stared at. Everybody is afraid of what they should have done. Moreso, that they'll never have the chance to redo what they've done wrong.
I just don't want to be one of those people anymore.
I don't want to come across as if I'm not happy. I've got loads to be happy about, and I swear the next journal I write is gonna be so sugary that you'll have to take insulin to read it. Tip your waitress, 'n try the veal...
One day, I hope to get a wedding invitiation from ya...
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1) your a good guy (one of the goodest i knows) so good things will happen to you. you've spent your whole life working to make people happy, so in return you shall be happy.
2) you end up like that guy on the simpsons who works and works and works and the lazy guy next to you has a far better life and you get electrocuted (i cant believe thats the spelling) or something or other like that.
lets hope for number 1 eh?
keep your chin up hun, like always. i'll make you happy <3 xoxo
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Oh Grimey, you crazy son-of-bitch.
I know you make me happy darling, but stress can't always be solved overnight. On to happier times...
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p.s. son-of-bitch?? shouldn't there be an 'a' somewhere there... and a crazy hungarian accent? mhmm.. thats what i thought FUNNY MAN!
p.p.s. it was good to hear you happy today (the many many times i called you/you called me even though its against the rules of your stupid work) mwaahaahaha hah ahaah hahah hah hahahaha) funny laugh eh? hmmm, theres no need for that last bracket... ( just to even things out :D
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