10) I'm really glad I got those new goggles. They've made me excited to swim, again. I find that buying new "stuff" makes it more fun to do whatever that "stuff" enhances (i.e. new running shorts, goggles, speedos, shoes, socks, etc.).
Totally agree. That is why I buy new books all the time: to keep myself interested and passionate about music. That is why I download new rap songs and buy an ipod: to keep myself interested and passionate about running.
Consumerism, you gotta love it.
Also, I think maybe you are just going through what every typical 20-25 year old goes through. It's that thought in the back of your head that you are unhappy and have no idea what is going on in your life. I go to school to study to become a musicologist...is this really what I want to do with my life? Does it all boil down to this constant need to work to pay my bills? Will I always be in this mode of wanting to lose weight? Will I always be unhappy with my job and financial situation? Will I ever be able to fill truly happy and confident? Will I stop feeling nervous about going to school because I feel like I am just not smart enough? Will I ever succeed in my field or will I just get a degree and continue to work at Storehouse? Will I ever find the guts to stand up to my boss? Will I ever get over these manic depressive stages?
Basically...no. So you fake it until you make it. That is what all those "happy" people do. Everyone feels the same way I do in some way or another...whatever is relative to them.
So put a smile on your face and tell yourself that everything is perfect, when it really isn't, and all you want to do is smash your car into a wall and give up. Because if you don't smile and tell yourself that everything is great, you just might do it.
Sweet. Now I'll be just like every other person in the world. That's really appealing.
By the way, you are freaking smart and you're an amazing musician. Screw everyone else, and keep buying iPods and rap music and run your ass off. If it's what makes us feel alive, why stop it for the sake of other peoples' opinions? I bought Kanye's new CD and I can't stop listening to it. I'm REALLY excited about running outside to listen to that whole CD. Seriously. It's not the same being in the gym, running on a treadmill, and listening to Kanye say, "What would you do for a Klondike? Or two dykes, lookin' Christina Milian-like." Those are outside lyrics... for realz. I love you.
Totally agree. That is why I buy new books all the time: to keep myself interested and passionate about music. That is why I download new rap songs and buy an ipod: to keep myself interested and passionate about running.
Consumerism, you gotta love it.
Also, I think maybe you are just going through what every typical 20-25 year old goes through. It's that thought in the back of your head that you are unhappy and have no idea what is going on in your life. I go to school to study to become a musicologist...is this really what I want to do with my life? Does it all boil down to this constant need to work to pay my bills? Will I always be in this mode of wanting to lose weight? Will I always be unhappy with my job and financial situation? Will I ever be able to fill truly happy and confident? Will I stop feeling nervous about going to school because I feel like I am just not smart enough? Will I ever succeed in my field or will I just get a degree and continue to work at Storehouse? Will I ever find the guts to stand up to my boss? Will I ever get over these manic depressive stages?
Basically...no. So you fake it until you make it. That is what all those "happy" people do. Everyone feels the same way I do in some way or another...whatever is relative to them.
So put a smile on your face and tell yourself that everything is perfect, when it really isn't, and all you want to do is smash your car into a wall and give up. Because if you don't smile and tell yourself that everything is great, you just might do it.
Fake it until you make it, or until you die.
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By the way, you are freaking smart and you're an amazing musician. Screw everyone else, and keep buying iPods and rap music and run your ass off. If it's what makes us feel alive, why stop it for the sake of other peoples' opinions? I bought Kanye's new CD and I can't stop listening to it. I'm REALLY excited about running outside to listen to that whole CD. Seriously. It's not the same being in the gym, running on a treadmill, and listening to Kanye say, "What would you do for a Klondike? Or two dykes, lookin' Christina Milian-like." Those are outside lyrics... for realz. I love you.
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