14 damn carats and an all platinum setting...and the heiffa stole my hair color!

[loveangel8773]

it's official. i saw and bought jet today and the new mr. and mrs. ronald isley are on the cover. damn girl looks good. i'm not hating. i cant hate. i refuse to hate. odd enough, every time i've watching her and kim on a show or whatnot, it's like watching myself. they're as silly as i am. it's like watching me and shay. crazy. those are my buddies. and she's got the hair color that i want. next payday, i'm going down to my girl shon and that's the color i'm getting. it's really pretty. ugh, it's unfair. she got married and still rocked her nose ring. i had to get rid of mine a long time ago--work purposes. so, the bridesmaids dresses were pink. not stank pepto bismol pink, but a nice pink. she gave me some ideas for my wedding...when and IF that ever happens. they had a friggin 5 tier french vanilla filled cake--and it was pink. PINK! it was a damn dapper wedding...gosh that makes me so envious. i'm sure all weddings to do that to me. and the heiffa got a 14 carat white diamond ring in an all platinum setting! that did it to me. i was freaking out in the grocery store because the chances of that happening for me are slim to none. i left the store and was in the car and on the phone with shay, trying to hold back the tears all while listening to ron isley sing. why do i put myself through these disappointments and heart breaks? ugh. i was seriously up in arms about the fact that i have no prospects and will probably never get to have anything that nice because no one is attracted to me. why me? am i not hot? is there no good man out there who has goals and wants to better himself and wants a lady who wants the same things? who can speak for herself and has good taste? is there no good, decent and LEGIT hard working scholar, business man, or CEO out there wanting a lady like me? bah. damn it all to hell. guess i'll be lonely. whatever. screw this.



damn happy couple...and she's got my damn hair color. heiffa...