Dec 13, 2005 23:45
I'm miserable. Totally and throughly miserable.
We had our weekly stitch n bitch meeting tonight, and to tell you the truth I wish I hadn't gone. Despite the yummy food, and the great material Melissa gave me, I had a horrible time. ( Sorry Melissa.)
I felt really out of place, but more importantly I felt ever, ever so jealous, unorganised and useless.
You see two of the girls are getting ready to have a market stall this weekend, and I've been invited to put some of my things in too. Which would be great, except I had no idea how organised and well, proper there set-ups were. And even more than that, their partners have been so helpful, building them displays, offering to man the stall when they're too busy to do it, etc.
I am completely and utterly unorganised. I don't even know what I want to put in (I have to be ready in 3 days.), let alone having swingtag labels, or fancy display things. And my partner is 100% unhelpful. I came home and tried to get him to help me make a tag and he pretty much complained about it and then told me it was all in my mind and I was projecting my feelings of unorganisation and uselessness onto him, and that he was actually being really helpful. Helpful my bum. Where is my tag if you're so helpful? Where are my displays and my offers of your time? huh? You couldn't care less.
So I'm thinking maybe I won't have anything in with their stuff. Or maybe just a few badges. Because nothing else is labelled, ironed, sorted, even sized and priced. And Janine only leave on Thursday and mum and dad arrive the day things need to be ready. I'm losing my brain trying to sort everything out at the moment.
I really just want some peace and quiet. I want Abraham out of my face, I want Aesop out too. ( As much as I love him, he's teething and clingy, and I really could just do with a few hours without him. but alas, breastfeeding means I can never have longer than about 2 hours.) I sort of wish xmas was over and done with and Janine was gone, and mum and dad had been and gone (although I actually like having them around. In an ideal world they would just live down the road.) And I could just relax and sew and chill out.