Depressed, Confused & Lost.....

[angelgirl1713]

Things haven't been so smooth between my boyfriend & myself recently & I think It's not only his stress / depression that's getting the better of him. I think it has to do a lot with his best friend of two years & myself. It's really a long story so I'll try to keep it short.

What happened was this, my bf told her about me, he was so excited to

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[angelgirl1713]

I definitely understand all of this & I agree with a lot of what you say, however, I do want to add something. Yes we have talked about marriage but not for a while down the road. Without even trying we've found all these things we had in common. I don't need him to be happy, but he does bring out the best in me & he has done so much for me in such a short amount of time.

The thing about these two girls, is that I can't drop them without having to sacrifice more then what I believe I should. Here's an example & I can see it playing out this way. His birthday is coming up in April & we plan on going to Atlantic City which is passing by Absecon, NJ where they live. I'm sure, now that they are back in his life, that they are going to want to see him / spend time with him too. So there are only a handful of ways to deal with this. We two go down, then he comes back, drops me off only to go back down to be with them. Or He comes back a few days later goes back down to be with them. Either way it's a waste of time, money & gas & it's highly unfair. It's unfair to him especially Because he has to wear himself thin because they are childish.

I have sent her two emails since they "reunited" and she hasn't answered one. In fact, he confronted me & asked me to tell him the truth about what I said, if I felt threatened, etc. Then he went on to say that even their mother said I had sent her a nasty email nearly everyday in Nov which isn't true. Now out of curiosity I checked my fb to see if I had these emails still, but I thought once they were gone I deleted them.... I didn't. I have every single one. & if you have a facebook, then you know that, in the long line of messages, you can't delete certain ones out of that stream without deleting the whole thing. I re-read them & I don't see where I could have been nasty or what not except for one part at the end when emphasized me being his gf. Even then, I have a right too since I am. I was hoping that you could, as well as everyone else, could read them & give me their opinion as to whether or not I've was cruel. It starts with the last conversation we had before things went down hill & ends with the two emails I sent her just recently (2mos later)