my first fic: Regret
title:regret
chapter: 1/?
rating: 17+ ( hehe, i'm not even 17)
pairing: gacktxkami / gacktxkamijo(later)
summary:
notes: this is my first fic i've ever written. forgive me if its bad. all types of comment are welcome.
He shouldn’t have left. This was the day 11 years ago GACKT departed from Malice Mizer, packed his bags and left to USA. Kami did tried to stop him, begged him not to leave.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~11 years ago~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Gackt came back early from work angrily. This wasn’t a usual sight. He just got kicked out from Malice Mizer this morning. Mana just told him this is due to musical differences. ‘Musical differences. Bullshit, he did this just to break me and Kami’.
Gackt started to pack his bag. He called the guys in Cains on the way home just now. You suggested that they all go to America to start a new band.
“Gackt stop, please stay, don’t go, don’t leave me”, Kami came running holding his lover from behind.
“You just stand there and did NOTHING!!!!” Gackt shouted, breaking free from Kami. “Do you even love me? “ Tears came running down Gackt’s cheek. “You know Mana wants to break us apart and yet you just stand there like some statue, allowing Mana to break us.”
“Gackt it’s not like that. Mana said it’s the best for everyone”, tears flowed non-stop.
“So you’re on Mana side now. Why don’t you go to him then, instead of holding me back!!! We all know Mana liked you. Go moan his name like how you moan mine!!! I’m not needed!
Kami slapped Gackt. “HOW DARE YOU DOUBT MY LOVE FOR YOU”. “I already gave myself to you and this is how you treat me, by pushing me to someone else “
Shocked, this is the first time Kami raise his voice and hit him. “Kami, I’m so.....” tries to embrace him
“Don’t touch me. I’m not your worth”
“Kami please, I’m sorry ok. I just lost it for a moment “.
“.............” *sob sob*
“Come here, I’m really sorry”, hugs Kami
“Ga...” Gackt lips came kissing Kami. Kami opened his mouth to accept. They kissed so passionately like there is no tomorrow. Gackt pulled back first to catch some air before continuing, leading them to their bed, taking off Kami’s clothes on the way
Kami’s clothes were gone before they reached. Their kisses become passionate and hungry, stopping only for air.
Gackt slowly, moved down to his neck, shoulder and slowly getting lower, stopping here and there marking Kami. Gackt stopped at his inner thighs licking and teasing earning him Kami’s moans.
“Gac..kt.. pl..e..ase...”
“Please what. I don’t know what you want” Hands not leaving Kami
“I want.... your to..n..gue...... Please I.... ah....” Gackt let his tongue run along Kami’s length then taking in the whole thing. His hands gripping Kami’s thigh, working hardest to give Kami the most pleasure.
Kami moans became louder and louder, losing control of himself. Gackt could tell that Kami is close. True enough he came and Gackt took in everything. Gackt let his tongue linger around there before pulling back.
It dint take Gackt long to stip himself. Kami knew what was coming next, they have done this uncountable number of times. Kami waited for Gackt to prepare him.
Gackt started to prepare him. When he knows Kami is well prepared, he slowly pushed himself into Kami. Knowing Kami is used to this he started to move while kissing him
“Ga...ckt mo..re.., ha..rd..er..., dee...pe...r” Kami kept chanting
Kami noticed Gackt is holding back not wanting to end soon. But soon Gackt lost it and came. Gackt collapsed on Kami, breathing heavily slowly gaining self control. Kami hands gently stoke his back.
Gackt pulled out and took some tissue at the bedside to clean them up. Slowly he slid into bed holding Kami tightly.
“Love, I want to let you know that wherever I am I will always love you. I love you now and forever more” Gackt said leaving kisses on Kami
“ I love you too. Now let get some rest” Kami closing his eyes inhaling Gackt’s scent and hearing the other’s heartbeat. Hearing Gackt’s heartbeat is like a lullaby to him
“Goodnight, I love so much and my love for you will never change no matter what” putting a peck on Kami’s cheek
Gackt watched his lover sleep. When he is sure the other is sleeping, tears came out from his eyes.
“Kami, I’m so sorry. I don’t mean to leave you but I just can’t stand it here. I know Malice Mizer is your life so I know asking you to follow me is like taking your soul away. Kami..... I love you. Love you so so much” Gackt whispered, holding Kami’s sleeping figure tightly, tears flowing like a waterfall
Slowly not wanting to wake his lover he got out from bed and got dressed. Just right before he close the door, he looked back at Kami. Kami sleeping there with a face of an angel. Gackt know he is going to miss all this. He said goodbye before he closed the door. Gackt left a letter on the dining table and went.
so do you want me to continue?
chapter: 1/?
rating: 17+ ( hehe, i'm not even 17)
pairing: gacktxkami / gacktxkamijo(later)
summary:
notes: this is my first fic i've ever written. forgive me if its bad. all types of comment are welcome.
He shouldn’t have left. This was the day 11 years ago GACKT departed from Malice Mizer, packed his bags and left to USA. Kami did tried to stop him, begged him not to leave.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~11 years ago~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Gackt came back early from work angrily. This wasn’t a usual sight. He just got kicked out from Malice Mizer this morning. Mana just told him this is due to musical differences. ‘Musical differences. Bullshit, he did this just to break me and Kami’.
Gackt started to pack his bag. He called the guys in Cains on the way home just now. You suggested that they all go to America to start a new band.
“Gackt stop, please stay, don’t go, don’t leave me”, Kami came running holding his lover from behind.
“You just stand there and did NOTHING!!!!” Gackt shouted, breaking free from Kami. “Do you even love me? “ Tears came running down Gackt’s cheek. “You know Mana wants to break us apart and yet you just stand there like some statue, allowing Mana to break us.”
“Gackt it’s not like that. Mana said it’s the best for everyone”, tears flowed non-stop.
“So you’re on Mana side now. Why don’t you go to him then, instead of holding me back!!! We all know Mana liked you. Go moan his name like how you moan mine!!! I’m not needed!
Kami slapped Gackt. “HOW DARE YOU DOUBT MY LOVE FOR YOU”. “I already gave myself to you and this is how you treat me, by pushing me to someone else “
Shocked, this is the first time Kami raise his voice and hit him. “Kami, I’m so.....” tries to embrace him
“Don’t touch me. I’m not your worth”
“Kami please, I’m sorry ok. I just lost it for a moment “.
“.............” *sob sob*
“Come here, I’m really sorry”, hugs Kami
“Ga...” Gackt lips came kissing Kami. Kami opened his mouth to accept. They kissed so passionately like there is no tomorrow. Gackt pulled back first to catch some air before continuing, leading them to their bed, taking off Kami’s clothes on the way
Kami’s clothes were gone before they reached. Their kisses become passionate and hungry, stopping only for air.
Gackt slowly, moved down to his neck, shoulder and slowly getting lower, stopping here and there marking Kami. Gackt stopped at his inner thighs licking and teasing earning him Kami’s moans.
“Gac..kt.. pl..e..ase...”
“Please what. I don’t know what you want” Hands not leaving Kami
“I want.... your to..n..gue...... Please I.... ah....” Gackt let his tongue run along Kami’s length then taking in the whole thing. His hands gripping Kami’s thigh, working hardest to give Kami the most pleasure.
Kami moans became louder and louder, losing control of himself. Gackt could tell that Kami is close. True enough he came and Gackt took in everything. Gackt let his tongue linger around there before pulling back.
It dint take Gackt long to stip himself. Kami knew what was coming next, they have done this uncountable number of times. Kami waited for Gackt to prepare him.
Gackt started to prepare him. When he knows Kami is well prepared, he slowly pushed himself into Kami. Knowing Kami is used to this he started to move while kissing him
“Ga...ckt mo..re.., ha..rd..er..., dee...pe...r” Kami kept chanting
Kami noticed Gackt is holding back not wanting to end soon. But soon Gackt lost it and came. Gackt collapsed on Kami, breathing heavily slowly gaining self control. Kami hands gently stoke his back.
Gackt pulled out and took some tissue at the bedside to clean them up. Slowly he slid into bed holding Kami tightly.
“Love, I want to let you know that wherever I am I will always love you. I love you now and forever more” Gackt said leaving kisses on Kami
“ I love you too. Now let get some rest” Kami closing his eyes inhaling Gackt’s scent and hearing the other’s heartbeat. Hearing Gackt’s heartbeat is like a lullaby to him
“Goodnight, I love so much and my love for you will never change no matter what” putting a peck on Kami’s cheek
Gackt watched his lover sleep. When he is sure the other is sleeping, tears came out from his eyes.
“Kami, I’m so sorry. I don’t mean to leave you but I just can’t stand it here. I know Malice Mizer is your life so I know asking you to follow me is like taking your soul away. Kami..... I love you. Love you so so much” Gackt whispered, holding Kami’s sleeping figure tightly, tears flowing like a waterfall
Slowly not wanting to wake his lover he got out from bed and got dressed. Just right before he close the door, he looked back at Kami. Kami sleeping there with a face of an angel. Gackt know he is going to miss all this. He said goodbye before he closed the door. Gackt left a letter on the dining table and went.
so do you want me to continue?