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so this will be interesting.
i got a new chopin cd yesterday at target and im now obsessed with it. i got a whole bunch of sheet music off line too so im practicing the piano. i love it. hooray for new obsessions!
its official: i have one fish. the other fish disappeared to god knows where (and no it wasn't eaten) so go figure- i guess i'm not a fish owner.
my MRI was super fun today haha. i went and was admitted and me and this guy walked down the hall- me in my hospital braclet and robe and out the door. into a trailer. shady? i think yes. it was super funny. apparently the hospital is renovating so they have this huge trailer set up out back. i climbed up and there was the MRI machine. funny stuff. i had 25 minutes in there- i fell asleep. then they pulled me out and injected the contrast shit (so on the image they see it in reverse) and i went in for another 25 minutes. i think it would be funny if there was thisgigantic obvious thing right there. not funny- just ironic. and by ironic i mean hilarious. i started to imagine what my stitches would look like after brain surgery. i know it wont really happen but it was a funny thought to entertain while i was in there.
then a somewhat important thing happened. a Cal State school opened up its nursing program again. all the nursing schools in california are severely impacted and there's wait lists for almost all of them. it's pretty intense. well i already was admitted to one community college starting in the summer (associates degree- a 4 semester program to become a registered nurse) i got in because i was transferring from a 4 year and have so many credits there like "uhh you want to come to us? uhh okay, idiot!" i hate that im going there but at least it's quick and ill be able to be working as a nurse this time next year. but now this Cal state thing screws everything up. I can get a bachelors of science in nursing- which is better because i can get paid more. either way i do what i want to do- one way i just make more money. the problem though is it's a 6 semester program. they allow 32 students into the accelerated program which gets you out in 2 years. great, right? well heres the thing: and this is how you know ive completely changed. im pretty damn inlove. in fact, i was engaged for quite sometime this summer. yah, hes gone in iraq for now, but we kind of have big plans for when he gets back. i didnt drop out because of him. i didnt i swear. i dropped out because i thought about suicide again and it scared me. i didnt want to be on the floor in the manor again. so i came home. and im getting that fixed. its not like hes here anyway! so dont think i quit school because of a boy. however, he gets out of the military in jan '08. after that he wants to go to this auto body school, not near here. i want to go with him. i dont want him changing his dreams for me. i love him and i want to be with him. so which program do i choose? if i go the associates degree route- i still do what i want to do, get out of a ton of school (which i want) and i will finish when he gets out and well be right on schedule to be- together (god thats corny haha) but if i go bachelors route- thats more time we're not together and it's only for a little more money. so what do i do? i dont know. i think ill stick with asso. because i hate school and want to be done fast. anyway thanks for letting me talk that out.
who would have thought that i almost got married this summer? not i. totally took me by surprise. we realized thats a pretty dumb idea- thank god- but its not out of the picture. i know i sound naive and dumb but when we get back together ill be 21, done with school, and working a steady job with a solid income. so why not? well, we'll live together at least.
and surprise! i wasn't the one to bring any of this up. he siad i love you first, he told me to go with him, he stayed the morning after. i wasn't looking for a boyfriend, let alone the love of my life. but too bad. im accepting it. i love him. :D
okay im done- this was pretty self involved. dont worry, there will be a good one tomorrow- i work then go to the psych!! yeah!!
oh p.s. i took madeline to the park today- there were a bunch of other mothers. this is the second time i've been mistaken for her mother. i dont correct them... haha
i got a new chopin cd yesterday at target and im now obsessed with it. i got a whole bunch of sheet music off line too so im practicing the piano. i love it. hooray for new obsessions!
its official: i have one fish. the other fish disappeared to god knows where (and no it wasn't eaten) so go figure- i guess i'm not a fish owner.
my MRI was super fun today haha. i went and was admitted and me and this guy walked down the hall- me in my hospital braclet and robe and out the door. into a trailer. shady? i think yes. it was super funny. apparently the hospital is renovating so they have this huge trailer set up out back. i climbed up and there was the MRI machine. funny stuff. i had 25 minutes in there- i fell asleep. then they pulled me out and injected the contrast shit (so on the image they see it in reverse) and i went in for another 25 minutes. i think it would be funny if there was thisgigantic obvious thing right there. not funny- just ironic. and by ironic i mean hilarious. i started to imagine what my stitches would look like after brain surgery. i know it wont really happen but it was a funny thought to entertain while i was in there.
then a somewhat important thing happened. a Cal State school opened up its nursing program again. all the nursing schools in california are severely impacted and there's wait lists for almost all of them. it's pretty intense. well i already was admitted to one community college starting in the summer (associates degree- a 4 semester program to become a registered nurse) i got in because i was transferring from a 4 year and have so many credits there like "uhh you want to come to us? uhh okay, idiot!" i hate that im going there but at least it's quick and ill be able to be working as a nurse this time next year. but now this Cal state thing screws everything up. I can get a bachelors of science in nursing- which is better because i can get paid more. either way i do what i want to do- one way i just make more money. the problem though is it's a 6 semester program. they allow 32 students into the accelerated program which gets you out in 2 years. great, right? well heres the thing: and this is how you know ive completely changed. im pretty damn inlove. in fact, i was engaged for quite sometime this summer. yah, hes gone in iraq for now, but we kind of have big plans for when he gets back. i didnt drop out because of him. i didnt i swear. i dropped out because i thought about suicide again and it scared me. i didnt want to be on the floor in the manor again. so i came home. and im getting that fixed. its not like hes here anyway! so dont think i quit school because of a boy. however, he gets out of the military in jan '08. after that he wants to go to this auto body school, not near here. i want to go with him. i dont want him changing his dreams for me. i love him and i want to be with him. so which program do i choose? if i go the associates degree route- i still do what i want to do, get out of a ton of school (which i want) and i will finish when he gets out and well be right on schedule to be- together (god thats corny haha) but if i go bachelors route- thats more time we're not together and it's only for a little more money. so what do i do? i dont know. i think ill stick with asso. because i hate school and want to be done fast. anyway thanks for letting me talk that out.
who would have thought that i almost got married this summer? not i. totally took me by surprise. we realized thats a pretty dumb idea- thank god- but its not out of the picture. i know i sound naive and dumb but when we get back together ill be 21, done with school, and working a steady job with a solid income. so why not? well, we'll live together at least.
and surprise! i wasn't the one to bring any of this up. he siad i love you first, he told me to go with him, he stayed the morning after. i wasn't looking for a boyfriend, let alone the love of my life. but too bad. im accepting it. i love him. :D
okay im done- this was pretty self involved. dont worry, there will be a good one tomorrow- i work then go to the psych!! yeah!!
oh p.s. i took madeline to the park today- there were a bunch of other mothers. this is the second time i've been mistaken for her mother. i dont correct them... haha