well i made it through last week, now the rest of the school year is all down hill. thank god.
i'm looking forward to nice weather this week so i can get outside and work out. yay
i went home this past weekend and it was a good time..
i wasn't planning on going home until school ends, but now i found out that lynn and the kids are coming home next ( Read more... )

 well journal, i'm back. maybe for a while. maybe for only one entry. we'll just have to see i guess.

summer is looming and the warm weather has been warming up my mood.
i was super motivated to get stuff done today, and thank god for that because there is not enough hours in the day this week for me to get everything done that i need to accomplish. ( Read more... )

2008 New Years Resolutions

1. Don't eat when I'm not hungry
2. Eat when I am hungry
3. Work out 3-5 days a week
4. Drink at least one cup of tea every day
5. Be more confident
6. Have the best year yet

wow. what's up college ( Read more... )

ugh now i remember why i go to sleep when i get home at night
sitting on here alone leads to thinking to much
and listening to sad music
which makes me fucking depressed.

i feel really bad about myself lately
when it comes to school i mean
i applied for so many scholarships and spent so much time working on them
and i didn't get invited to senior recognition night
which means i didn't get any of them
ive gotten letters in the mail too saying that i wasn't selected
it pisses me off that they try to make the letters sound ( Read more... )

the past three days have been nothing but a fucking binge
i feel so worhless and discusting right now.
fuck

ive felt a little better the past few days
i think its school that has been depressing me
we had like a 4 day weekend basically

i worked today and yesterday but i didnt get to go to the Y
so i feel like im going through withdrawl or something
i dont know...

ryan jessica and alex came over tonight
it was nice.
i love jessica

then i watched intervention with ( Read more... )

i have everything that i want
everything is perfect
i should be the happiest that i've ever been
but i'm not. im so sad all of the time

i need help.

this week has been the worst week i've had in a long time ( Read more... )