"You've changed..."
I have. And I'm proud of it.
In high school, this girl was trying to memorize vocab words.. and to help her remember "taciturn", she was like "Oh, Taciturn Trish!" And it fit. Definition: inclined to silence; reserved in speech; reluctant to join in conversation.
But after two or three years, of having to face issues I felt strongly about and been a minority opinion, and going out and meeting new people, I've become a lot more outspoken. When I went to church today, we had a group discussion after service, and I knew I was going to be the minority opinion, but spoke out anyways. I, in fact, was speaking for most of the time, almost leading the discussion.
And tonight, TriDelta's having a "Jungle Party". And, most girls are just wearing animal print shirts, and tights or jeans, or something similar. I am wearing an all-black outfit, and black cat ears.. and I know I'm going to stick out, but I am going to look damn hot, and don't care if I'm the only one dressed up as an animal.
Point being, I've come to be confident in my decisions and my opinions, and have learned to be outspoken in them. By the grace of God, through my experiences, I've become a stronger person. And honestly, I've found that since I started becoming more involved with Asian Christian Fellowship (that's another change.. I used to be freaked out by big crowds of Asians, and now I'm starting to embrace my Chinese culture ^__^), I've found this... untapped confidence to battle the lack of confidence I've had for my whole life.
My belief goes like this.. God gave me life, my body, all the chances and opportunities I've ever been given. My intelligence, everything, is all because of Him and the situations He put me in. Who am I to not be happy with what He's given me. I can be upset with how I've mistreated the gifts I've been given, but there's no use crying over it.. I just have to work hard to use my gifts to the best of my ability. And in the same light, I remember once a while back, this girl was saying how she meet a girl who "danced for God" and how she thought that was crazy. And I might've agreed back then, but I've made a 180 since... If God gave me life, gave me all these opportunities, gave me everything I have.. and He is this all knowing, powerful, amazing God, who am I to mistreat what I've been given, and not give thanks in everything I do? It only makes sense to live for Him, and do everything for Him.. praise Him in everything I do.
So, yeah. I've changed. And, I'd say, definitely for the better.
In high school, this girl was trying to memorize vocab words.. and to help her remember "taciturn", she was like "Oh, Taciturn Trish!" And it fit. Definition: inclined to silence; reserved in speech; reluctant to join in conversation.
But after two or three years, of having to face issues I felt strongly about and been a minority opinion, and going out and meeting new people, I've become a lot more outspoken. When I went to church today, we had a group discussion after service, and I knew I was going to be the minority opinion, but spoke out anyways. I, in fact, was speaking for most of the time, almost leading the discussion.
And tonight, TriDelta's having a "Jungle Party". And, most girls are just wearing animal print shirts, and tights or jeans, or something similar. I am wearing an all-black outfit, and black cat ears.. and I know I'm going to stick out, but I am going to look damn hot, and don't care if I'm the only one dressed up as an animal.
Point being, I've come to be confident in my decisions and my opinions, and have learned to be outspoken in them. By the grace of God, through my experiences, I've become a stronger person. And honestly, I've found that since I started becoming more involved with Asian Christian Fellowship (that's another change.. I used to be freaked out by big crowds of Asians, and now I'm starting to embrace my Chinese culture ^__^), I've found this... untapped confidence to battle the lack of confidence I've had for my whole life.
My belief goes like this.. God gave me life, my body, all the chances and opportunities I've ever been given. My intelligence, everything, is all because of Him and the situations He put me in. Who am I to not be happy with what He's given me. I can be upset with how I've mistreated the gifts I've been given, but there's no use crying over it.. I just have to work hard to use my gifts to the best of my ability. And in the same light, I remember once a while back, this girl was saying how she meet a girl who "danced for God" and how she thought that was crazy. And I might've agreed back then, but I've made a 180 since... If God gave me life, gave me all these opportunities, gave me everything I have.. and He is this all knowing, powerful, amazing God, who am I to mistreat what I've been given, and not give thanks in everything I do? It only makes sense to live for Him, and do everything for Him.. praise Him in everything I do.
So, yeah. I've changed. And, I'd say, definitely for the better.