Find yourself
Sometimes I feel like I am floating around inside myself somewhere, lost to the direction of real life. Like I don't know my left from my right, up from down, truth from a lie. Sometimes I can't tell my feelings apart. I suppose that happens to everyone. Feeling lost. I just need to find myself again. I know I am in there somewhere, I've just gotten jostled around by mistakes. Like sometimes when something happens I retreat into myself and it is always worse when more things go wrong. When it feels like absolutely nothing can go right. Self pity sets in. Who needs that? What good does it do? I am surrounded by people who are bitter about everything because self pity is bringing them down. The complete lack of taking responsibility for their own actions. Blaming everyone around them, or blaming all the shit in their past. Don't get me wrong, that matters. It isn't as if past abuse doesn't damage a person, but in no way does it give the person a right to abuse themselves and others around them. It's like a person who refuses to bend, and so you have to bend until you break?! That isn't right either. I too am guilty of the "woah is me" phase, but only on an occasion where if I didn't let it out I might break. In short, I am taking a new outlook on my life. I am going to start taking care of the things in my life that are broken, instead of looking for a way out. I am finding myself again, and this time I will be that much stronger, that much more of a person.