i got the blues

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I'm having a lot of fun
yet still im feeling gloomy
i dont know why.....i miss home
i miss my dog and my cats and my mom and my dad and derek
and BRITTERS
and i miss home the place
i miss my own space...not having to sleep in the same room as two other people....
i miss the comfort of knowing who cooked my meals and whats in them (mostly)
i miss friends who know me and being able to just walk outside
i miss my car

i miss feeling secure in who i am
i hate this internal need to tone my personality down

is there anything wrong with my personality?

I hate meeting boys then being disapointed by them and feeling that i'm still attracted to you but your an utter dickhole but you have wicked cute dimples when you smile phase. The trying to not like you period.

I wish i had more experiance with relationships
i wish i could meet a guy here that i felt some connection with and that things could possibly work out ok
nothing serious just fun and some feeling