my mom died 12 years ago today. i miss her. love you mary.

i'm finally able to acheive the apparently herculean tasks of quieting my mind and finishing all most of my tasks for the evening. it's 4:40. now in bed, i am rewarded for keeping the anxiety at bay with the tapping whirr of rainfall. the radiators are on the subsaharan africa setting so the windows are open. in december. the city is quiet and the ( Read more... )

tonight at a friends party, a new boy, with sparkling blue eyes and scruffy hair, fed me chicken soup. "here try this broth" as he held out the spoon to my lips.

silk hanky full of snot.
damn you nova, california, dc, and possibly international cooties.

stuart murdoch is the new burt bacarach. discuss. or maybe it's the god help the girl album only. are these songs he's had full and exclusive creative control over?

one of the things i look forward to most about being thin is an exposed collarbone. it's one of the most beautiful areas of the human body. and imma have one (visible) soon. w00t.

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the constant white-grey sky you get during snow is so beautiful-the white ground reflecting the white sky. as are the colors of the snow at dusk-a sparkly pastel rainbow. and the actual lighting the snowy light gives off-everyone's got perfect lighting. and i'm not even going to make a twilight joke about loving something cold, white and sparkly.

it's raining and i wish it was not so cold so i could open the window to go to sleep listening to the shimmering whirr of the rain.

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must have been a full moon. god the full moon makes me feel wacky. hyperproductive. but maybe that's 2 days off in a row.
but it's like shit will be crazy, i'll look up and yes, the moon is full. so there you go.

i bailed from best friends day.  i spent the day at the coffee shop, the thrift store and errand running. all of these were productive and relaxing in some way. i got food in the house. i got a bunch of pictures edited and uploaded at the coffee shop. not to mention accomplishing some major sit-down-chill-out time. productive except for the ( Read more... )