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does rock music promote hate? Its agressive behavior suggests that it is in fact an agressive emotion being extrovated through music and agressive music at that. My hate usually comes out when i play. so does it actually cause more hate or does it cure it? Is it the act of rebellion? Rebellion against parents who are rulers of you. Instead of being a helpful and intellectual stimulating friend. My big hang up with parents who are infact trying to keep control of you instead of having a symmetrical relationship with you they infact have a asymmetrical relationship with you. It is not about the intimacy it is about ownership. He thinks he owns me. And i am simply cutting the umbilical cord. I no longer need your food. I no longer seek shelter in your home. I am Ryan and it cuts like a knife. I want to harm you but infact i am rebelling to get away from you so i dont have to deal with the stress of indifference and not proclaiming myself as different. If i stayed here i would merely be you. I would not be me. And i must transcend to a higher plain to go where i want to go. To be free of your oppression and be more me instead of having to be nice because it has an effect on you. Why should i be nice now? because that is me and if i did the opposite like i was doing it would get me nothing but hate in return because they would not know of my situation of trying to rid myself of my parents. And soon i will be free of them and i will no longer have to deal with them. Finally i will be me and i will be gone. Gone for good to a land where the sun shines forever. Oh yeah i will enjoy myself for certain this time around. I feel so old. I feel like i have learned so much these last couple years and i have reached a state like no other. To reach a higher state without understanding how you got there is like reaching a beach with beautiful women on it but you have to backtrack to understand how you got there. you have to know your past so you dont repeat it over and over again. I have not remembered things and then i was reminded and it was time wasted. The key, dont waste time.