...would you lie with me and just forget the world
its been 4 months since i had to put Scruffy to sleep and im still mourning. i can listen to Snow Patrol w/out almost bawling my eyes out. it was the cd that i was listening to as i drove home with an empty carrier next to me. i was so attached to her. we had a very close bond. she was my baby girl.
i thought things were looking up for me. but today everything just came tumbling down again. my mom left for Canada yesterday. im here alone in worcester. another fucking xmas here. just the fact that i cant see family makes me want to quit my job. xmas was my favorite holiday since i was a kid. i miss my family! i hate being here!
I found out today that me and Garrett didnt get that apartment we liked in Derry. im just having the worst luck. i just want to go home.
today was my last appt. with my shrink. she said that if im still around and i need to talk to just call and make an appt in Jan. i probably will. she asked me today on a scale from 1-10 how i thought i was when i forst started seeing her and i said a 3. she asked me how i am now and i said a 6 or 7. she said that she prefers that id be an 8 before i stop counseling so i should talk to a close friend once a week about things and that should help. looks like i might be using this thing more that i thought i would.
Garrett couldnt get tomorrow off. looks like a waste of a day off. well atleast i can spend time with my neglected animals
i thought things were looking up for me. but today everything just came tumbling down again. my mom left for Canada yesterday. im here alone in worcester. another fucking xmas here. just the fact that i cant see family makes me want to quit my job. xmas was my favorite holiday since i was a kid. i miss my family! i hate being here!
I found out today that me and Garrett didnt get that apartment we liked in Derry. im just having the worst luck. i just want to go home.
today was my last appt. with my shrink. she said that if im still around and i need to talk to just call and make an appt in Jan. i probably will. she asked me today on a scale from 1-10 how i thought i was when i forst started seeing her and i said a 3. she asked me how i am now and i said a 6 or 7. she said that she prefers that id be an 8 before i stop counseling so i should talk to a close friend once a week about things and that should help. looks like i might be using this thing more that i thought i would.
Garrett couldnt get tomorrow off. looks like a waste of a day off. well atleast i can spend time with my neglected animals