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Friday night. every fuckin friday night. i do nothin. i have no life. alone on a damn friday eating Kix cereal out of the box. Slick is chasing every peice that drops on the floor instead of my mouth. my life sucks....
School's almost done. just mon, tues, and wed left. My cousin Mia is comin from Canada tomorrow and staying at my place till May 8th. Its her first time in the US and i have one day off. yup ONE fuckin day off, wed. and i have a final that morning. Colleen asked for monday off and got it. so that means i get put on the schedule. sure its only 3-7 but thats right in the middle of the day. plus i have class till 11:20am. it took me 2 months to get thursday night off (i work 7-1:30 down in the kennel and 2-6:30 up in the hospital every thurs). i had to find my own coverage for my 2-6:30 shift. but yet no one else does. no one seems to understand how important having my cousin here is to me. ive dreamt about havin her come visit me in the US and showing her an awesome time since i was wicked young and spending my summers in Canada. i want out of Worcester. i cant stand my job. i dont even want to be there anymore. i cant stand the people i work with or the way its run. i feel so unappreciated. im slacking lately too cause i dont have my heart in it anymore. im fuckin tired. im fuckin stressed. i dont know what i want anymore. i mean what the fuck! i missed out on the only time i get to see my whole family (xmas) because i had to work. ive worked every fuckin holiday so i could get xmas off to see my family. now my cousin in coming and i hardly get anytime with her. i feel like she's goin to have a horrible time now. and im stressing over that!
i just want a normal life. i want weekends off. i want to get out at a normal time during the week. i want to see my friends and family and not have to drive to far to see them. i want to go out! im sick of falling asleep at 9:30 every night alone because this depression makes me want to just crawl into bed and never get up. i hate getting up in the morning. i wake up like shit every morning. i have to drag myself out of bed. im so slow at getting my day started. ugh i have a headache...
Ruthie, my obedience dog, is on a trial adoption. They brought her home for the weekend. she's coming back on sunday and i want to be there when she comes back since i couldnt be there when she left cause i was working (whats new?). god im gonna miss her. i wish i could of adopted her. im scared im never goin to see her again. last saturday was Petfest....how to i explain petfest? well all the dogs in my obedience class are trained my one of the students in the class. i was assigned Ruthie. we train them to sit, lay down, stay and many others, but instead of words they learn hand cues. its really cool. they also train on an agility course with jumps, tunnels, a see saw, a tire jump, the A frame, the dog-walk. its really cool some of the things these dogs can do. plus we teach them a "special trick". anyways Ruthie won first place on the agility course (she's amazing!). and 2nd place on the rally obedience which is a course where u show what your dog knows like sit, down and stay. anyways she was exhausted after...and so was I. im was pretty annoyed that her adoptive family were not there to see her. everyone else had people there.
well ive got shit to get done.
School's almost done. just mon, tues, and wed left. My cousin Mia is comin from Canada tomorrow and staying at my place till May 8th. Its her first time in the US and i have one day off. yup ONE fuckin day off, wed. and i have a final that morning. Colleen asked for monday off and got it. so that means i get put on the schedule. sure its only 3-7 but thats right in the middle of the day. plus i have class till 11:20am. it took me 2 months to get thursday night off (i work 7-1:30 down in the kennel and 2-6:30 up in the hospital every thurs). i had to find my own coverage for my 2-6:30 shift. but yet no one else does. no one seems to understand how important having my cousin here is to me. ive dreamt about havin her come visit me in the US and showing her an awesome time since i was wicked young and spending my summers in Canada. i want out of Worcester. i cant stand my job. i dont even want to be there anymore. i cant stand the people i work with or the way its run. i feel so unappreciated. im slacking lately too cause i dont have my heart in it anymore. im fuckin tired. im fuckin stressed. i dont know what i want anymore. i mean what the fuck! i missed out on the only time i get to see my whole family (xmas) because i had to work. ive worked every fuckin holiday so i could get xmas off to see my family. now my cousin in coming and i hardly get anytime with her. i feel like she's goin to have a horrible time now. and im stressing over that!
i just want a normal life. i want weekends off. i want to get out at a normal time during the week. i want to see my friends and family and not have to drive to far to see them. i want to go out! im sick of falling asleep at 9:30 every night alone because this depression makes me want to just crawl into bed and never get up. i hate getting up in the morning. i wake up like shit every morning. i have to drag myself out of bed. im so slow at getting my day started. ugh i have a headache...
Ruthie, my obedience dog, is on a trial adoption. They brought her home for the weekend. she's coming back on sunday and i want to be there when she comes back since i couldnt be there when she left cause i was working (whats new?). god im gonna miss her. i wish i could of adopted her. im scared im never goin to see her again. last saturday was Petfest....how to i explain petfest? well all the dogs in my obedience class are trained my one of the students in the class. i was assigned Ruthie. we train them to sit, lay down, stay and many others, but instead of words they learn hand cues. its really cool. they also train on an agility course with jumps, tunnels, a see saw, a tire jump, the A frame, the dog-walk. its really cool some of the things these dogs can do. plus we teach them a "special trick". anyways Ruthie won first place on the agility course (she's amazing!). and 2nd place on the rally obedience which is a course where u show what your dog knows like sit, down and stay. anyways she was exhausted after...and so was I. im was pretty annoyed that her adoptive family were not there to see her. everyone else had people there.
well ive got shit to get done.