Let's put the emotional control to the test..
RIght. Talk about a god awful shitty ass day. I didn't go to bed until 1 last night, which was stupid, seeing as I haven't gone to bed before 1 since, I really don't remember. So I guess I totally zoned out this morning because I remember setting my alarm but when I woke up at noon it wasn't set. I don't know if I woke up with it and turned it off or if I didn't really set it or what but I missed three classes today. Fuck me. I need to get my passport in the works like NOW and I don't have everything I need so I couldn't do that today. Shit. And I have no idea of my particular number of absences in a particular class, which is very very very very bad because I do not want to fail, I cannot fail, I will most likely be murdered if I fail. Literally. I'll be killed. I'm so close to sobbing my brains out right now it's not even funny. Plus I have rehearsal tonight and that always upsets me because, well just because. Google Stop Kiss and read the synopsis, I'm not explaining. AND I found out today that Eddie and Danielle are leaving next semester along with Makinzie and thus leaving me here with Nick as my only friend. I wish I had gotten up this morning because my dreams were full of not fun topics and I'm just really really really upset and I want a hug and a lap to curl up and cry in. And or go home. I really really really want to go home. I can't wait for school to be over. I want my mommy. Add on to everything else that my sister hates me right now because I didn't talk to her during LOST on tuesday and she hasn't spoken to me since. AND I've discovered I'm a horribly sad person because I can't get rid of stuff that reminds of how shit was, And now I'm actually crying and thinking about things I know I shouldn't do and I really really really REALLY need a hug right now.