Glimpse of fate?
Here is an example of a non-essential workings of fate that has intercepted my life. So small that I suppose the average person would not look at it as so.
Yesturday, the 20th of February, I had just finished doing my laundry; work clothes included. I showered and then continued to get ready to leave for work. I had put on my dark, faded green military looking pants and noticed the leg straps were sticking out some. To give you a little bit of information, the let straps on the right side of my pants have ripped off so I tuck in the left side threw a small hole in the leg pocket so that they are not visible of course I didn't cut them off to begin with. Go figure. I then grabbed by brown toque and debated if I should wear it or not. I could not make up my mind, so I had rolled it up nice and tight and shoved it in to that very same leg pocket that had my leg straps in. However this did not feel comfortable, so I took it out and put it in the leg pocket on the other side. You may be thinking, how that is any different, well the other leg has two pockets one a little bigger then the other, i had rolled up my had so it would fit in a cell phone sized pocket....
I continued to get ready, puting on my jacket, putting my gear in my backpack and headed out the door down the stairs of the apartment building. I didn't want to take the elevator in fears of being late for the bus. Down the stairs I went and out the side door, jogging over to the bus stop. At the bus stop I noticed something different about me. Something just didn't feel right. I felt a little lighter then usual. I couldn't tell what it was. Then it struck me. I started feeling around my jacket, my pants, inside my pockets, and I had noticed that I didn't have my wallet on me. Trying to figure out what went wrong here, I started pacing back and forth trying to think if I even bothered to put it in my pants. To this day, I still don't think I did. I ran back a bit to look on the ground ahead of me to see if I could make out anything on the road or sidewalks that would disrupt my view. IE: a black area on the ground resembling my wallet. I could not see anything. I didn't want to go all the way back to retrace my steps to make sure it didn't fall out or to see if it was in my room, because I would have missed the bus, and missing that bus would have made me 30mins late for work. So I bit the bullet and decided to stay at the bus stop. Soon enough, the bus came and I went to work.
Now as I write this, I still have not found my wallet. I still try to remember if I had it in my leg pocket that my legstraps where in, but I still dont even remember grabbing my wallet to put it on my person. I dont even remember the last place that I had it out.Ok, i lied. I do remember the last place which was right in front of me on this coffee table thing that is now serving as a monitor and printer compartment. But well before this all happened.
How is this fate? How is this some force communicating with me? I'll tell you how. On the 11th of February, I cashed my cheque. I put the money in my wallet. Later in the week, however i'm not sure exactly when, it could have been a few days ago as well, I had taken 100.00 out of my wallet in fear that I would spend it and then come up short for rent the next pay. So that 100.00 was a safety deposit I guess to add to next pay in case I got payed less then I did on the 11th. The rest of the money that I had, I ended up spending throughout the week, and I was left with only five dollars in my wallet (along with all my i.d, bank card, birth certificate, health card etc) This was when I noticed my wallet missing. Pretty wierd huh? It could have went missing when I had my entire pay inside it, but it didn't. This is all very unimportant I assume, but wierd non-the-less. What could this be saying to me. How could I interpret this? Perhaps, I am not supposed to exisit. Or perhaps it's the beginnnig of me losing my indentity. Become someone new? I am not totally sure yet. The fact that it happened after i spent what spending money I had and took out the 100.00 to save for next pay, tells me that I am in fact supposed to exist, so I guess it has something to do with loss of indentity. Meaning will I loose it? have I lost it? or is it a doorway to a new beginning.
Quite interesting stuff to the open mind.