blah......bomb it!! bomb it!!!
Errrg. Third day of christmas vacation. BORING FREAKING SHIT! I'm resolving to swearing again. I feel like my old asshole self. hehe. Idc.
GOD DAMN FUCKING OHIO.
ok, I feel better. Idk. Part of me is thinking it could be nice, but I'm afraid I'll like it, not want to leave agin, and then have it all torn away again. And then I'll have to come back to chesterfield for like the third time. And I'll have drifted away from all my friends here, while not really have gotten the chance to be great friends with anyone down there. And then it'll feel lost and alone, and I won't want to come back because it'll all be gay and miserable. Errrrg.
But there is a chance we stay down there. It's not that I don't love you all to death, it's just that you'll all have you separate lives here, and most ppl will forget about me, or just stop caring. Even my best friends won't care as much after like a week or two. And then life will go on. And if I come back, everyone will have gotten closer, while I'll have drifter away. Idk. Maybe it'd be better to just stay there. But we know that won't happen either. If we don't move back here, we'll end up going somewhere else like fricken Texas.
Lets explain!! hehe. I guess my time here was up, because I've been here what?? like 3 years...ish. Almost. Most places I've lived, it's been less than 2 and a half years. So I guess I've just been in the same place a bit too long. Maybe. I'm trying not to care anymore, and to be optimistic, but I can't. I just can't. I feel so trapped, and I can't stand it. But at some point, I think I have to get away from here for a while. It's like, I keep messing things up and hurting ppl, and I don't want to do that.
There's one good thing that's come out of all this though. Evan and I are actually talking!! lol. It's really wierd, but I like it a lot better than when we didn't talk. So yeah.
Well, that was my horrible venting for the morning. All that frustration will be back by noon.
Someone call me. I need help!! ........but no white jackekts...plz.....i don't like those.....
o0o. Lets plan our attack!! Bomb ohio!! mwahahahahahahahahaaaaa!!! CACKLE CACKLE! eehehehehehehee!!
bomb it!! bomb it!!!
GOD DAMN FUCKING OHIO.
ok, I feel better. Idk. Part of me is thinking it could be nice, but I'm afraid I'll like it, not want to leave agin, and then have it all torn away again. And then I'll have to come back to chesterfield for like the third time. And I'll have drifted away from all my friends here, while not really have gotten the chance to be great friends with anyone down there. And then it'll feel lost and alone, and I won't want to come back because it'll all be gay and miserable. Errrrg.
But there is a chance we stay down there. It's not that I don't love you all to death, it's just that you'll all have you separate lives here, and most ppl will forget about me, or just stop caring. Even my best friends won't care as much after like a week or two. And then life will go on. And if I come back, everyone will have gotten closer, while I'll have drifter away. Idk. Maybe it'd be better to just stay there. But we know that won't happen either. If we don't move back here, we'll end up going somewhere else like fricken Texas.
Lets explain!! hehe. I guess my time here was up, because I've been here what?? like 3 years...ish. Almost. Most places I've lived, it's been less than 2 and a half years. So I guess I've just been in the same place a bit too long. Maybe. I'm trying not to care anymore, and to be optimistic, but I can't. I just can't. I feel so trapped, and I can't stand it. But at some point, I think I have to get away from here for a while. It's like, I keep messing things up and hurting ppl, and I don't want to do that.
There's one good thing that's come out of all this though. Evan and I are actually talking!! lol. It's really wierd, but I like it a lot better than when we didn't talk. So yeah.
Well, that was my horrible venting for the morning. All that frustration will be back by noon.
Someone call me. I need help!! ........but no white jackekts...plz.....i don't like those.....
o0o. Lets plan our attack!! Bomb ohio!! mwahahahahahahahahaaaaa!!! CACKLE CACKLE! eehehehehehehee!!
bomb it!! bomb it!!!