she's needs somebody.
i want someone to reassure me. that im worthy..
nothing else.
because i feel totally worthless. so undeserving.
i never seem to question myself. not like this. its only when im feeling down, or suicidal-ish. in that im not sure i want to live. so then when i feel this way, it becomes even more difficult to think about making any big steps.
i should know better.. but i will never learn. i will keeping putting him, and myself through pain neither of us needs.. and i worry.. i worry.. soon.. he won't want to put up with me and all too often, i wish he would give up on me.
i don't make sense to me. im so damn confused. its just not funny, in that its comical. <<--exactly, sarah, exactly.
now im talking to myself. wait. i always talk to myself.
rawr. i should be in bed. yes. i should.
so why aren't i? because.
every word is making me cry. why am i so sensitive tonight? i'd like to know. and i'd like these tears to end.
nothing else.
because i feel totally worthless. so undeserving.
i never seem to question myself. not like this. its only when im feeling down, or suicidal-ish. in that im not sure i want to live. so then when i feel this way, it becomes even more difficult to think about making any big steps.
i should know better.. but i will never learn. i will keeping putting him, and myself through pain neither of us needs.. and i worry.. i worry.. soon.. he won't want to put up with me and all too often, i wish he would give up on me.
i don't make sense to me. im so damn confused. its just not funny, in that its comical. <<--exactly, sarah, exactly.
now im talking to myself. wait. i always talk to myself.
rawr. i should be in bed. yes. i should.
so why aren't i? because.
every word is making me cry. why am i so sensitive tonight? i'd like to know. and i'd like these tears to end.