fatherly evaluation
I think I am a better house-husband than I am a father.
Sydney goes off to work and I then make lunch for the kids, clean up, vacuum, do laundry, take out the trash, make dinner and put the kids to bed. Meanwhile I have the TV on with Baby Einstein or Blue's Clues so I can work. It seems like my role as a father has been keeping them feed and alive. I feel bad about the lack of more parental interaction. I used to do more reading, drawing, and even music time with them. Music time was lost when we could not take the piano with us after the fire. Drawing time then was drawing on a huge piece of paper together, now I hand my daughter a box of crayons and a coloring book. I still read at bed time when it is my turn, but Summer usually falls asleep to it rather than learning words and the joy or reading. Now that I am working thirds and Sydney is working part time, when I watch the kids I feel lost. Like I have forgotten what to do with them ... so I just do house work. Of course, all that house work does need to be done.
I just feel bad.
Sydney goes off to work and I then make lunch for the kids, clean up, vacuum, do laundry, take out the trash, make dinner and put the kids to bed. Meanwhile I have the TV on with Baby Einstein or Blue's Clues so I can work. It seems like my role as a father has been keeping them feed and alive. I feel bad about the lack of more parental interaction. I used to do more reading, drawing, and even music time with them. Music time was lost when we could not take the piano with us after the fire. Drawing time then was drawing on a huge piece of paper together, now I hand my daughter a box of crayons and a coloring book. I still read at bed time when it is my turn, but Summer usually falls asleep to it rather than learning words and the joy or reading. Now that I am working thirds and Sydney is working part time, when I watch the kids I feel lost. Like I have forgotten what to do with them ... so I just do house work. Of course, all that house work does need to be done.
I just feel bad.