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it hurts really bad right now. tonight feels like its one of the worst nights already. everything I see, hear and even smell reminds me of her. she is gone and I need to forget but it's not happening. I can't let go. I know I need to but I just can't, and it is killing me. so many things I wanted to say and I never got a chance to. so many things I wanted her to know but i sat in silence. I didn't deserve someone as great as her, someone as special as she is. she became a ray of hope in a cloudy world for me, and I have lost that ray.