not much of a day...

[lostinthoughts6]

Got my new cell phone! yay its ten times better then my old one but my # changed i hate memorizing numbers im so bad at that. went to the awards ceromony and well i realized something there yet another thing i did.... whenever i meet someone something bad always has to happen and seeing someone ther got me so upset and i cant stop thinking that everything is my fault for these things cause i kno they are. its like 24/7 im thinking of this one person, its my fault if we never met it would have been easier on me but yet im happy i met him infact i wanna know him better i want to be just friends thats all im glad i met him but making his life a living hell isnt what i wanted. I hate how i have to act like im ignoring them when all i do is think about them in school when im out ne where it sucks i cant get it outa my head i just wanna carve the thought out. Which does remind me talked to shane today now i understand something well i did until Tom came right after my ceromony.... went back to reality im stuck no way out if there is...its really gonna be hell for me and im tired of balling out my eyes i just want things to go right for once and i wish i could talk to this one damn guy i hate the fact that im not allowed to ne more ...just the thought it sucks it sucks it sucks...well now i "gotta" talk to dickface so later
<3 Lex