grrr...
I dont understand why life needs to be so hard... Ps this is probably going to be one of those crazy cryptic things... anyway sometimes im so like ready for everything and so happy with stuff and then other times i'm worried that i'm living my life all wrong. Like i made some bad decisions and now im just living with it instead of changing my life and doing what i really want. then sometimes i really jsut dont know.. actually most of the time i just dont know.. I think i just want to feel like i can do whatever i want.. which i can but it doesnt always feel that way.... grrr i wish i wasn't always so self destructive...