i am utterly alone.
i realized i smoke because im alone, i cut because im alone, i have done everything that i have done because i am so alone. nobody cares about me. nobody could give 2 shits. if i moved, everyone would be happy.
i hate it when ppl pretend they care when i can clearly see they dont.
i hate them all, theres nobody that i love anymore. cause nobody could even find a reason to care bout me.
when im depressed, they dont notice. when im hyper they tell me im insane, they all think im insane. and i prolly believe them. i prolly am completely losing it as a speak.
the dripping blood might provide the first clue for that. hehe.
i think im gonna puke, i feel sick.
im so sick of rob, he has just started tearing me down. today for example, i actually was able to enjoy myself, and he just kept bitching bout how he was bored and wanted to get away. when i was all hyper he was just acting like a was insane, and i could tell i was irritating the crap outof him. he seems to think he owns me, like i, and every part of me belongs to him. when i dont eat, he calls me anerexic and beliemic on a regular basis. he doesnt believe that i dont do drugs anymore. im so sick of it. he just makes me feel like shit. u know wut, maybe i used to steal a lil to much, smoke a lil too much pot and exetera, but thats my past, wich was hard to get over and i did. and now everyone, FUCKING EVERYONE just loves to bring it up and show me i am still that person even though ive tried my hardest to change. so u know wut? FUCK IT ALL. i am going to cut, because i bleed, i am going to smoke anything i feel like it cause i want to. i am going to do WUT THE FUCK I WANT because it doesnt even matter. so i mightas well start rolling muh jay, BECAUSE I HAVe POT HERE AND I WANT IT. so there FUCK u all. im going to tell him im smoking pot too. THEY CAN ALL FUCKEN KISS MY WHITE ASS because u know wut? they dont care. and im going to enjoy myself as much as possible b4 i die. i think i already have my rebound guy picked out too, hes has a nice body and im sure itll piss rob off so there. he apparently thinks im hot too, probly just cause i have a fucken fat ass but wutever. i dont give 2 shits any more cause i am all alone and its prolly better that way.
i hate it when ppl pretend they care when i can clearly see they dont.
i hate them all, theres nobody that i love anymore. cause nobody could even find a reason to care bout me.
when im depressed, they dont notice. when im hyper they tell me im insane, they all think im insane. and i prolly believe them. i prolly am completely losing it as a speak.
the dripping blood might provide the first clue for that. hehe.
i think im gonna puke, i feel sick.
im so sick of rob, he has just started tearing me down. today for example, i actually was able to enjoy myself, and he just kept bitching bout how he was bored and wanted to get away. when i was all hyper he was just acting like a was insane, and i could tell i was irritating the crap outof him. he seems to think he owns me, like i, and every part of me belongs to him. when i dont eat, he calls me anerexic and beliemic on a regular basis. he doesnt believe that i dont do drugs anymore. im so sick of it. he just makes me feel like shit. u know wut, maybe i used to steal a lil to much, smoke a lil too much pot and exetera, but thats my past, wich was hard to get over and i did. and now everyone, FUCKING EVERYONE just loves to bring it up and show me i am still that person even though ive tried my hardest to change. so u know wut? FUCK IT ALL. i am going to cut, because i bleed, i am going to smoke anything i feel like it cause i want to. i am going to do WUT THE FUCK I WANT because it doesnt even matter. so i mightas well start rolling muh jay, BECAUSE I HAVe POT HERE AND I WANT IT. so there FUCK u all. im going to tell him im smoking pot too. THEY CAN ALL FUCKEN KISS MY WHITE ASS because u know wut? they dont care. and im going to enjoy myself as much as possible b4 i die. i think i already have my rebound guy picked out too, hes has a nice body and im sure itll piss rob off so there. he apparently thinks im hot too, probly just cause i have a fucken fat ass but wutever. i dont give 2 shits any more cause i am all alone and its prolly better that way.