cant sleep...
i cant fall asleep...cause im scared i might wake up too late. then ill get screamed at agian...then i wont be able to actually hang out with jax...wich of course will come with benifits, one of wich seeing aimee 4 one of the last times.
not that i dont wanna hang out with jax of course.
but ive come to realize...all over agian when i was in denial of to make me feel better, nobody cares. especially not jax.
jesus fucken christ, whenever i talk to her i can tell she doesnt wanna fucken talk to me, she cant spend more than 3 seconds listening, and everything, fucken everything has to be about her.
u know ive loved her as a sister for as long as i can remember...ive tried my best to be there for her, but u know it gets hard when i know she really couldnt give a fuck about me. does that sound selfish?
im sorry if it does...but i can tell that the only reason we decided to start being friends agian is because we cant let the past go. we were too close, so now were friends even though its only because of everything thats gone.
i started watching fight club around 1...im almost through watching it for a second time now. naa it musta bin 12 come to think of it.
3 more hours of solitude...about. i hope i can make them think that i slept...
1 week till school starts...im still trying to decide wether i should blow of my first few classes or not. it really wouldnt matter, nobody does anything the first few days.
maybe just first and second, it really depends on if i have ppl to hang with or not.
u know why the hell does brad pitt have to wear girls clothes in fight club?
his very last outfit, is definetely girls clothes. it really irritates me when guys wear girls clothes like this... ooh well.
im beggining to think im having trouble forming organized thoughts...thisll lower my grades even more when i go back to school...and im not even on pot this time!! haha so ironic...
not that i dont wanna hang out with jax of course.
but ive come to realize...all over agian when i was in denial of to make me feel better, nobody cares. especially not jax.
jesus fucken christ, whenever i talk to her i can tell she doesnt wanna fucken talk to me, she cant spend more than 3 seconds listening, and everything, fucken everything has to be about her.
u know ive loved her as a sister for as long as i can remember...ive tried my best to be there for her, but u know it gets hard when i know she really couldnt give a fuck about me. does that sound selfish?
im sorry if it does...but i can tell that the only reason we decided to start being friends agian is because we cant let the past go. we were too close, so now were friends even though its only because of everything thats gone.
i started watching fight club around 1...im almost through watching it for a second time now. naa it musta bin 12 come to think of it.
3 more hours of solitude...about. i hope i can make them think that i slept...
1 week till school starts...im still trying to decide wether i should blow of my first few classes or not. it really wouldnt matter, nobody does anything the first few days.
maybe just first and second, it really depends on if i have ppl to hang with or not.
u know why the hell does brad pitt have to wear girls clothes in fight club?
his very last outfit, is definetely girls clothes. it really irritates me when guys wear girls clothes like this... ooh well.
im beggining to think im having trouble forming organized thoughts...thisll lower my grades even more when i go back to school...and im not even on pot this time!! haha so ironic...