Goodbye, for now
I dropped Josh off at the airport today. He's flying to DC where he picks up a 7+ hour flight across the puddle, as I understand it, and winds up in Germany.
I've been sort of wandering the apartment since. Cleaning this, tidying that, generally being sad. You make compromises anytime you live with someone, but i keep trying to add up what i've got back now that he's not living with me, and it doesn't beat what i've lost. Piles of army crap and empty soda cans all over weren't that bad to live with.
I will readjust, of course. I've got plenty to keep me busy. Now that the challenge of getting him prepped, packed, and out the door on time is over, i can focus on packing and purging my own junk heap and getting ready to move.
We're supposed to visit each other every 3 months or so. He's going to try to take leave in June, and come back to visit his people in New York, and I'll go see him there. After that maybe I'll cross the puddle and see him in Germany. So, here goes two years, three months at a time.
But today i just need hugs.
I've been sort of wandering the apartment since. Cleaning this, tidying that, generally being sad. You make compromises anytime you live with someone, but i keep trying to add up what i've got back now that he's not living with me, and it doesn't beat what i've lost. Piles of army crap and empty soda cans all over weren't that bad to live with.
I will readjust, of course. I've got plenty to keep me busy. Now that the challenge of getting him prepped, packed, and out the door on time is over, i can focus on packing and purging my own junk heap and getting ready to move.
We're supposed to visit each other every 3 months or so. He's going to try to take leave in June, and come back to visit his people in New York, and I'll go see him there. After that maybe I'll cross the puddle and see him in Germany. So, here goes two years, three months at a time.
But today i just need hugs.