imma be back

[lostinmyworld53]

so i really want to start writing in my LJ again... but for ME this time, not b/c i have any interest in who reads it or what they have to say about it. that's how LJ started out for me, but then i made more friends and everyone had their say on what i was writing so i began saying things or not saying things with my audience in mind. well it's a

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[anonymous]

i’m not leaving a name because i’m speaking for more than one person. but it doesn’t matter what we say you’re going to delete it anyway and pretend it has no effect on you right? you pretend to be depressed over small shit so that you can run to andrew with your "problems" because if he didn’t have to "help" you, and if you didn’t pretend you "need" him to keep him around he wouldn’t give a fuck about you. you do stupid things like shoplift, and you tried to cut your wrist with an earring, whoop de doo. if you seriously had problems you would use a knife. stop trying to fuck up your life on purpose. you won’t give other guys like austin a chance because you think you’re fine with the "deal" you have with andrew. you talk about him like he’s your boyfriend, guess what? he’s not. you bragged about sleeping in his boxers so don’t even think about denying what i said. its not about him its about you. shape up brittny.

[lostinmyworld53]

well to captain intelligent who thinks i'm fucking up my life to keep andrew around, i really appreciate you trying to make a fun story for me. i don't need someone else to tell me why i'm depressed or how it was stupid to try to cut myself with something like an earring. i think i know myself a bit better than some 'friend' i made the mistake of trusting.
it's ridiculous to hear someone as clueless as you are trying to give me relationship advice and telling me how i think of andrew. you're not "speaking" for anyone. the way i'm running my life doesn't affect you or anyone else you think you're speaking for. i got it under control.
by the way, you're not so good with your commas. we should work on that.

[anonymous]

wow you’re worried about my use of commas when you claim you have so much to be depressed about. can you say denial? grow the fuck up. i’m not telling you how to live your life. just be careful, and for once in your life think. andrew’s not a bad friend, but that’s all he is, a friend. your life is not a stupid game of "andrew says" being his weekly wednesday fuck bag is your flawed decision. if that mina girl wasn’t dying, you would be useless to him because he "loves" her, you would be out in the cold. so don’t pretend like you give a shit about a dead friend of his, because to you all she is a postscript like in your entry: "p.s. memorial fund." ohh yeah that shows you care.

btw pretending your comments are disappearing from andrew’s myspace is a lame attention seeking tactic. it doesn’t take a genius to know that you can delete your own comments. i’m sure he’s not that stupid.

[lostinmyworld53]

your comma usage is pretty bad. i think even if i were standing with a gun to my head ready to take my life, i would still pause to fix up your commas.
i'm not in any kind of denial. and wasn't it a few days ago that you were claiming i was FAKING the depression and now it's turned into "i'm depressed and i'm in denial"? perhaps if you're going to try to give me bullshit on how i'm running to my life, you should figure out your own opinions first.
i don't need to hear your andrew lectures. i know what i'm doing while you, on the other hand, don't have a clue what's going on. you also don't have the tiniest clue about anything dealing with minah. go fuck yourself. i hope someone you care about dies and a friend you trusted patronizes you. think about that, and i mean REALLY think about it.
quit pretending like you care and get your own shit straight. your life isn't as wonderful as you've always thought it was. i think it's high time you gave up bitching about everyone else when you're more lost than i ever was.

[anonymous]

hang out with andrew like he's a friend, be his twice a week fuck and whatever but do you have to announce it to the whole fucking world like you're a couple? do you have any idea how unapproachable you're making yourself? your thing with andrew will end some time and you're going to hurt bad, so bad when it ends. if you didn't act like a helpless girl all the time he wouldn't be around to bail you out of your lame problems. don't pretend you don't cry yourself to sleep thinking you will never be anything more than a friendly fuck to him. he calls what he does playing not dating, i thought you were smarter than to let someone play with you. whatever. you're in college, for fucks sake act like a college girl, hang with other guys. STOP FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF AND DEPENDING ON ANDREW to chill with and make things better. FYI i never said my life is perfect but at least i'm not whining like you. grow the fuck up don’t be a baby.

[lostinmyworld53]

you're pretty silly. thanks for the advice on things that aren't happening and thanks for stating the obvious. you lost your case on everything else you were arguing about and just had to rely and andrew things? *sigh* i really can't believe someone starting drama on LJ, making anonymous comments like a middle school child is the one telling me to grow up. you've proved yourself unreliable a hundred times over. i'm done with you and your pathetic attempts to pretend to know everything.

[anonymous]

unlike you i care about my friends enough to not turn my back on them. i care about you but it always has to be about you doesn't it? whine whine whine, andrew didn't show when he was supposed to, whine whine whine, my life sucks and i need him to fix my shit, whine whine whine, andrew didn't reply to my text messages, whine whine whine. give the guy a fucking break.

would it kill you to live a little and not isolate yourself?

[lostinmyworld53]

nope, i don't give a shit about you. get over it. i'll turn my back on any 'friend' who's acting like you are. i have no reason to keep your pathetic, whiney, hypocritical ass around. perhaps if you lost your holier-than-thou attitude, people would like you better and old friends wouldn't be disgusted by your mere existence. i couldn't care less how you'd handle your friendships. just be glad that someone as selfish and fucked up as me isn't one of them

[anonymous]

wow this fake perky attitude works well on you. why screen my comments unless you have something to hide honey. my obsession with andrew? YOU’RE the one whos obsessed. its funny how you talked about him blowing you off this week, whining at him for the reason your laptop is not fixed, then blah blah blah i don’t want him to come over because i don’t want to wake my lazy ass up on monday. its also funny how you keep patronizing andrew to come over and sleep with you because you have no one to sleep with. then you brag about every time andrew came over like its some huge accomplishment. people fuck all the time big whoop. like anyone wants to read about your daily routine. its funny how andrew agrees with some of the things i’ve said and you conveniently choose to ignore it. its funny you called me a hypocrite. did you forget about the time you walked all over ty? or that you conveniently ignore sean’s feelings.

[lostinmyworld53]

the thing is, i DO have things to hide. my personal life does not need to be revealed to the world. my little sister reads my journal and i'm allowed to decide what i want her to know

[anonymous]

i love how you contradict yourself. first you ask if you should unscreen my comments then you say your private life needs to be hidden. darlin you bare your whole life in lj nothing is private. i also love how you use your sister as an excuse. you reply directly to everything i say so any stupid person can make the connections about what i said. you’re a regular fucking genius. i love how you think you’ve got andrew warped. you’re fucking lucky he feels SORRY for your needy attention seeking boo-hooing and ignores your whining. you admit to being emotional and hurting yourself and you tell me you’re not having any issues. great cover up. not. or are you just that good a liar? lying to andrew about feelings that he can see through. lying to yourself and then getting "emotional". thats where the hurt is coming from bb. i love how your pathetic cries for help ALWAYS come around the times andrew is with you. how sad that you have to overplay your depression and "troublesome" life and pretend its all falling apart when he’s around.