shoot me
Ugh, so its officially over..
Friday night, i talked to him and he said "i cant promise i will be there tonight, but i promise that i will see you this weekend" and well its sunday, and i had been calling all day, and he ignored it, i called from Kay's phone and he answered, so i threw the fucking phone...then he called back, and kayliegh told him the situation, and so then he asked for me, and we talked...he said "i generally don't go hanging out with the girls i break up with right after" and i was realy upset that i thought we were on a break, but he just plainly stated that it was over, like nothing new, like casual news...
i started crying, and he said "i wasnt trying to ignore you but i made plans with my friend for all weekend, and i didnt wanna just be like take me to see poeple you dont know" i wanted to be like "FUCK YOU" but i didn't, i held it in. Then he said sorry, and that maybe after work this week, and i said okay whatever...it just pisses me off, that he talks to me like nothings wrong and i fucking can't scream at him, when i know i have every fucking right to. HE said to me "im sorry, i didnt intend on things to end up this way" I hate how he lies, i hate how he completely blatantly lies, how he says that he cant deal with a relationship at this time, which in my head is complete fucking bullshit, cause he has time for friends, and he seems fucking fine...
I hate that he took that from me, and then did this to me. i hate that i still want him, that i can't live without him. I hate that i still want to be with him completely..i fucking hate this..i fucking hate myself at this point, all i feel that i want is him, i want to try as hard as i can to get him back, ughhh FUCK BOYS FUCK THIS SHIT!!!!!!
He broke a promise, which at this point to me is the most crucial issue, i feel like i can never trust him, that its impossible, that i cant fucking trust himmm...i hate that, he broke a promise..i feel like he doesn't care about me, i feel so unloved and so uncared for...
Friday night, i talked to him and he said "i cant promise i will be there tonight, but i promise that i will see you this weekend" and well its sunday, and i had been calling all day, and he ignored it, i called from Kay's phone and he answered, so i threw the fucking phone...then he called back, and kayliegh told him the situation, and so then he asked for me, and we talked...he said "i generally don't go hanging out with the girls i break up with right after" and i was realy upset that i thought we were on a break, but he just plainly stated that it was over, like nothing new, like casual news...
i started crying, and he said "i wasnt trying to ignore you but i made plans with my friend for all weekend, and i didnt wanna just be like take me to see poeple you dont know" i wanted to be like "FUCK YOU" but i didn't, i held it in. Then he said sorry, and that maybe after work this week, and i said okay whatever...it just pisses me off, that he talks to me like nothings wrong and i fucking can't scream at him, when i know i have every fucking right to. HE said to me "im sorry, i didnt intend on things to end up this way" I hate how he lies, i hate how he completely blatantly lies, how he says that he cant deal with a relationship at this time, which in my head is complete fucking bullshit, cause he has time for friends, and he seems fucking fine...
I hate that he took that from me, and then did this to me. i hate that i still want him, that i can't live without him. I hate that i still want to be with him completely..i fucking hate this..i fucking hate myself at this point, all i feel that i want is him, i want to try as hard as i can to get him back, ughhh FUCK BOYS FUCK THIS SHIT!!!!!!
He broke a promise, which at this point to me is the most crucial issue, i feel like i can never trust him, that its impossible, that i cant fucking trust himmm...i hate that, he broke a promise..i feel like he doesn't care about me, i feel so unloved and so uncared for...