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OK, so if you don’t know me, or don’t like serious crap, just skip this entry, you’ll be doing yourself and me a favor.
Well, today I had a very spiritual sort of day. Not to be read as me becoming religious. To me, spirituality does not have to be affiliated with religion or being a religious person. It’s funny, I was talking to Kristin the other day, and we talked about how it sometimes seems like the body knows things before our conscious mind does. This is so true for me. For awhile now, my body’s been out of funk. I knew something was off, but I had no idea what was going on, it’s like my body was constantly screaming “SLOW DOWN”. But when I would meditate, I just couldn’t reach the point I previously could so easily reach. I would sit meditating for longer than usual, but to no avail.
As I was walking back from helping out with the “Vagina Monologues”, I stopped to swing by Carmichael. I thought back to Elementary School, and how I use to be so introverted, no, so shy, that I would be afraid to sharpen my pencils at school! Oh, how I loved freshly sharpening pencils at home, but often I forgot, and wrote with a totally blunt pencil. It was just bad. By the time I hit High School, I went to a Unitarian Universalist Retreat site with my church/ fellowship/ whatever-you-want-to-call-it. There was this one place, called Meditation Rock. I just remember laying there with Rachel and Kate looking at stars, and finding some type of enlightenment or spirituality for the first time. It was like the world went from black and white, to being a brilliant place. That’s when I realized that my shyness was totally suffocating. So I became outgoing. It’s like I trained myself to feed of other people’s energy, instead of being wiped out by it.
Well, I’m starting to realize I might have gone a little too extreme, and that occasional introverted-ness is really good too, and it isn’t the same as shyness! And so, I sat on that swing, by myself, and just sat and let people pass by. It was totally what I needed.
Well, today I had a very spiritual sort of day. Not to be read as me becoming religious. To me, spirituality does not have to be affiliated with religion or being a religious person. It’s funny, I was talking to Kristin the other day, and we talked about how it sometimes seems like the body knows things before our conscious mind does. This is so true for me. For awhile now, my body’s been out of funk. I knew something was off, but I had no idea what was going on, it’s like my body was constantly screaming “SLOW DOWN”. But when I would meditate, I just couldn’t reach the point I previously could so easily reach. I would sit meditating for longer than usual, but to no avail.
As I was walking back from helping out with the “Vagina Monologues”, I stopped to swing by Carmichael. I thought back to Elementary School, and how I use to be so introverted, no, so shy, that I would be afraid to sharpen my pencils at school! Oh, how I loved freshly sharpening pencils at home, but often I forgot, and wrote with a totally blunt pencil. It was just bad. By the time I hit High School, I went to a Unitarian Universalist Retreat site with my church/ fellowship/ whatever-you-want-to-call-it. There was this one place, called Meditation Rock. I just remember laying there with Rachel and Kate looking at stars, and finding some type of enlightenment or spirituality for the first time. It was like the world went from black and white, to being a brilliant place. That’s when I realized that my shyness was totally suffocating. So I became outgoing. It’s like I trained myself to feed of other people’s energy, instead of being wiped out by it.
Well, I’m starting to realize I might have gone a little too extreme, and that occasional introverted-ness is really good too, and it isn’t the same as shyness! And so, I sat on that swing, by myself, and just sat and let people pass by. It was totally what I needed.