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maria_sputnik June 21 2012, 14:06:33 UTC
"WE ARE RIDING A BRONTOSAURUS" -- !

That paragraph about the Filipino baby ritual is like a little comic already, and SGA is beautiful with her new Louisana hair.

Is New Orleans the new container for the YLostCosmonautMB? And have you found some Shepherds to walk down there? I am having trouble moving you in my mind from Hicksville to NOLA. Have you changed your profile page, I am too lazy to look. Is the updating updating because there is nobody in the room with you disturbing your thought waves? Is there really a Dodge Magnum? Is Blade Runner really your favorite movie? WTF is up with these voices?

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maria_sputnik June 21 2012, 14:17:15 UTC
Whoops, I see that you are Shepherdless.

Only semi-relatedly: Sometimes when I'm in mid-swing of thinking something really neurotic, I think about something you wrote where you said that the Devil loves it when you're neurotic, and then I don't go re-lock the door. JUST KEEP WALKING.

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dissolve into flow lostcosmonaut June 21 2012, 15:25:22 UTC
relevant: here's an elegant post on Tumblr that dropped th same day my el jay post did, on pretty much th exact same topic http://lazenby.tumblr.com/post/25521613043/i-dont-think-im-stupid-but-i-cant-help-hating-myself

Now that's a guy that writes liek a BEAST

--mza.

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press conference lostcosmonaut June 21 2012, 15:01:47 UTC
ah'll take yr questions in order:

A) Ah plan on being here and growing here for a while. It's like buying shoes a size too big, in anticipation

B) Not sure if ah changed my el gay profile page (2 lazy 2 look), but ah def changed my FB one. I remember because Billy Ray, who lives here, too, 'liked' it

C) Solitude does make it easier, as always

D) I saw a Dodge Magnum on th road recently, and it looked like a hearse, a v. handsome hearse, and it stuck in my mind. It turns out they were discontinued after th 2008 model

E) Blay Ronner's not my favourite, but I admire it, and I say its name aloud more than that of any other movie

F) Th "Mexican" accent is my least-practiced one of th three presented here. I often read to myself in "English" and talk to dogs in "Southern"

What's up, PDX? I "attended" that comix reading you were pimping last month; it was v. successful

How do you handle yr urges to update, if you have such urges anymore ( ... )

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maria_sputnik June 21 2012, 15:53:06 UTC
I was sure you had actually bought a Dodge and left the silver car in Hicksville; I am sleepy, but even in my most wakeful states not good at at sorting out fact from ... whatever is not a fact ... for instance I would have been sure that you, speaking in an English accent, was a not-fact, but I seem to have been confronted with proof to the contrary ( ... )

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maria_sputnik June 21 2012, 15:53:47 UTC
p.s. Why don't comments have headlines anymore? The headlines were nice.

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flowers on th coffin lostcosmonaut June 21 2012, 17:16:21 UTC
i loved th subject lines ... they really fucked up on that one

Some journal templates still support subject lines, but not mine. I can still stick one in there, though, as you can see, if I reply directly through e-mail

Dig these, though: http://www.livejournal.com/shop/userheads.bml

Little bit late to be adding cute features, el gay, but all right

--mza.

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isn t being able to sort out non facts sort of a plus in yr profession lostcosmonaut June 21 2012, 17:07:23 UTC
well mebbe you are a little psychic because ah did leave Megatron in Hicksville, but th car I've got now is a humble little Nissan Versa that is, if anything, even more of a wimp than Megatron ( ... )

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maria_sputnik June 22 2012, 01:14:20 UTC
Sorters, when talking to fabulists, have to keep saying REALLY over and over again, that's how the job is done. To fact-check your whole UPDATE would take approximately one bazillion years as done through comments -- but my recollection is that the more fabulist sounding parts (like the comic laid on your baby-back) are usually the true ones ( ... )

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maria_sputnik June 22 2012, 01:15:59 UTC
p.s. Speaking of female-run communities I am still sorry I dropped the ball on that conversation about Dave Sim etc. over at Goodreads, I had a lot to say but for some reason didn't want to say it. However the list of the things that interest you, in order, as discussed with yr wife in the car, is very interesting and kind of like another little comic book, somehow.

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misogyny and tonic lostcosmonaut June 22 2012, 15:02:13 UTC
don't worry, ah'll probably come back to that topic in el gay before I'm done -- hardly anybody I know reads Goodreads, so that was a good place to work out a rough draft of my thoughts on Dave Sim's anti-feminism, which is not a polite topic for a female-run community

My own attitude toward women is closer to Buster Keaton's in Th General

When I write about that stuff here, you are th first person whose reaction I will be curious about

--mza.

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maria_sputnik June 22 2012, 16:36:05 UTC
It was mostly because it was on Goodreads that I didn't want to talk about it, I was overly aware of the other people in the forum getting notification emails, plus I don't love talking about inflammatory shit in public forums, this will go down on your permanent record, right, plus talking about inflammatory shit at all gives me a heart attack, which is in interesting juxtaposition to you, conflict-anthropologist.

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maria_sputnik June 22 2012, 04:35:55 UTC
p.s. I was talking to D. about this on the way home today, and he was comparing the "I don't write much, so I have to write a resume if I'm going to return" phenomena to having parties. We have a "party" at our house every Thursday, everyone is welcome to come over, it's not a big thing, usually we just make soup and sit around and talk (though originally I hoped people would come over and draw, it hasn't turned out that way). Anyway the first couple of times people came over, we were totally uptight and had five different kinds of beverages and people brought wine and flowers and stuff, and we cleaned the fuck out of the house, and so forth. But we've been doing it since January, and now people don't bring wine anymore, if they come they just show up kind of like they did last week. I guess that's the difference for me between a dormant relationship and an active one -- it's only with the latter kind that I feel free to come as I am ... ?

p.p.s. "blogging about how one hasn't blogged much, lately"

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wine and flowers and stuff lostcosmonaut June 22 2012, 15:07:23 UTC
yES trying to bring wine & flowers & mushrooms w/ every single el jay post because there's only 8 left

--mza.

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lostcommenter number eight lostcosmonaut June 22 2012, 14:48:47 UTC
yES "interesting point of view" is th least interesting point of view

I agree w/ you, but I really think th uptightness of th community (which is an essential part of its charm -- who wants to be part of a club that isn't exclusive?) amplifies whatever uptightness you're already bringing to th table

I'm glad you're concerned for my well-being. Th truth is I don't know for certain whether I'm depressed or not, but I'm pretty sure depressed is not a meaningful label for me. Th truth as I see it is more or less what I typed in my diary entry -- a combination pep rally and escape from "self", an attempt to write an essay about depression in th imperative voice -- but make it informative & universal

Oh, ah didn't mean to ignore yr komment about making more komix w/ you. Of course I'd love to, but it'll probably have to wait until I finish my novel (unless you want to adapt something, like last time)

--mza.

P.S. dunno what my parents put on my back, if anything, never asked. So let's say, maybe that happened

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maria_sputnik June 22 2012, 16:53:39 UTC
Well, depressed and self-hatey aren't exactly the same thing. Sometimes when I am feeling spectacularly unmotivated I think about Fritz saying "Deprethion ith anything that keepth you from doing thomething." But that whole thing of "I am looking at a yogurt cannister and -- wait -- God I hate myself" sounds like stuff I prefer to think of as chemical. I had a whole month of that experience after the Japanese earthquake last year

-- but whatever about me and the boat I imagine I might one day live in... anyway I hope the waves of self-loathing part soon, or that you get so ninja you can perceive the lovely beach next to the waves of self-loathing, whichever works...

w/r/t more comix, yes I figured it'd be adapting something, it's just a question of finding something to adapt. I was thinking of going back to that goodreads and making a comic out of

(Yesterday in th car, th wife helped me brainstorm a list of my favourite conversational topics, th stuff that least bores me, and it went something like this ( ... )

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