D-Day

[lostbutgood]

The Musical is here! The hour is upon us, the glorious time has arrived, we go now, and we may go to our ruin, but we shall go no matter the outcome. ha. I wonder if Mrs Buelin will make me the TD. Seriously all the cast from last year that I've spoken to said that they think I deserve it, and that makes me feel really really great, and if I dont get it I dont know what I'm going to do. If I do get it I'm quitting all of my Jobs. Between the Musical and Homework my life will be full enough and I will just have to get by with no money. No big deal, Its way worth it. But thats if I get the job, if I'm allowed the oppurtunity. Oh, if you dont realize this, I want nothing more in my life right now, than that position. Guys and Dolls was by far the most memorable event in my high school life so far. Oh man I wanna be the TD so bad. I love the musical, tech makes me happy, lame as that sounds its beyond the truth. Who knows. Anyway, nothing much else is going on, some problems by the wayside, but they are all mostly fleeting and meaningless. Nick continues to be a pain. I dont like him most of the time. Of course he is my brother and that does carry implications and I do know him probably better than most everybody and I do think he can be a good person. But I have to hear how much everyone doesnt like my brother all the time and it does get old sometimes, while I understand where their coming from I dont know what they want me to do, affirm or dissaffirm their oppinions for them? I dunno, but anyway hes a real pain in the ass because hes ruining the theatre with his brownnosing ass kissing. He gets chosen by mrs buelin for stuff then I do all the work because he doesnt know what hes doing. (Essentially- he gets all the credit while I do all of the work, its a crooked system.)It really does drive me mad though. Like the fall play, I was td for that but mrs buelin, knowing that less work would be involved if nick did the main part of that production (the lighting) rather than myself, choose nick. This works out because Nick would rather cater to her every whim and I would rather get the show looking its best. The Actors had to avoid dark spots on stage during their show. He didnt even have a general wash, Much less any sort of specials or effects! It just makes me sad, and it pissed off alot of the actors because they felt like they were getting second rate treatment (this also had to do with the 'directing' mrs buelin gave but thats another long story) and they were mostly right I'm afriad. I dunno right now I just wanna get through this week and get the part of TD, if you're religous, pray for me, if you're a lay man, put you head between your legs and kiss your ass goodbye.

PS. I LOVE Samantha Reed, I tire of phone tag, call me darling.
PSS. I was on narcotics while I wrote this so I hope I didnt say anything stupid