a sad story
well its been for ever sents ive gotten on this damn thing.i dont know were to begin...well let me start from the beginning.i meet the greatest man in the world.he was something new and fun an i couldnt get enough of him.his name is kevin james dickason,a 23yrs and how as the great personality.we got together around Dec10 to shorten things up a bite our relatioship was something that made every unhappy cupual sick to there stouch.down the road i needed up getting pregnant i couldnt do something that i know that i would end up beating my self up for so i keep this little gift.as time went one kevin came up with the greatest idea to move to denver Col.its sounded like a good idea so we got in our car and drove our happy ass all the way.i was very sad that i left orlando but at the time i was think about starting a new begining with my new family.months pasted my and things were great intill his mother moved into our placed and the shit hit the roof.kevin started hanging around the wrong people and started back up with the drinking an the drugs.he became someone different.things started to get even worsed and his mother ended up kicking us out of our own place and from there we ended up staying at his friends place.and i really wanted to kill someone.my life was some thing great and now its looking black an blue.money was becoming a big problem and kevins habits became a never ending problem.
On july7 thats when i meet the true color of my baby dady... he went out around 8:45 an came home @ 2:15 in the morning.i didnt want to start and piont finger at him till i found some sort of proof of what he was doing.so i looked through his phone and found all kinds of numbers from there i looked in his pocket and found a ticket.i knew were this ticket came from b/c we went together about a week ago.oOo by the way that ticket was from a strip club.i was so hurt that our relationship was falling down the hole.so i woke him up and asked him what he was going all night long.iam not going to get into details but no girl at five months should never get beaten ,punched or throw around like some fucking rag doll.all i ever wanted in my life was to have a good man and to have a father around when my son grows up.iam at a breaking piont in my life were all i want is the man that fell in love with back in my arms agin.i want to have things back the way they were but no matter how hard i pray for things to be back the way they were.its not going to happen,kevin is so lost and for the second time in his life hes not going to there for his sons birth.i never dreamed in my life that i would find my life in such a drama sceen.i am happy that i do have a good family.if my mother wasnt so loving and caring i would more likely be in a womens shelter or... well iam not there.i just want every women to know that no matter how hard things get for them please always keep your head up high and think about whats best for your self.
love always panda
xoxox
On july7 thats when i meet the true color of my baby dady... he went out around 8:45 an came home @ 2:15 in the morning.i didnt want to start and piont finger at him till i found some sort of proof of what he was doing.so i looked through his phone and found all kinds of numbers from there i looked in his pocket and found a ticket.i knew were this ticket came from b/c we went together about a week ago.oOo by the way that ticket was from a strip club.i was so hurt that our relationship was falling down the hole.so i woke him up and asked him what he was going all night long.iam not going to get into details but no girl at five months should never get beaten ,punched or throw around like some fucking rag doll.all i ever wanted in my life was to have a good man and to have a father around when my son grows up.iam at a breaking piont in my life were all i want is the man that fell in love with back in my arms agin.i want to have things back the way they were but no matter how hard i pray for things to be back the way they were.its not going to happen,kevin is so lost and for the second time in his life hes not going to there for his sons birth.i never dreamed in my life that i would find my life in such a drama sceen.i am happy that i do have a good family.if my mother wasnt so loving and caring i would more likely be in a womens shelter or... well iam not there.i just want every women to know that no matter how hard things get for them please always keep your head up high and think about whats best for your self.
love always panda
xoxox