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Although being single was initially depressing, it is now just boring. Who am I going to fantasize about now? Jeez. I can't be too very sad though, it's not like there was some dramatic, tragic ending - we love each other and are still friends. It is still a little bit tough acclimating.
On another note: it really bothers me when people get really jealous when they aren't even with you. I called this kid immediately after you know I knocked it into my head that oh wait, yeah I'm single this sucks and his reaction was infuriating. Instead of being supportive he was just awkward and kind of mean. You know why? Because he doesn't like the idea of me being with other people. I fucking hate that. Oskhar was just like that for wayyyy too long.
Well anyway, I went to my grandmother's yesterday to see her for the last time before I leave. One of my uncles was there with his wife and his kids and they gave me a present I felt unfit to accept. Well I spent a big time talking to my family, and for the rest I played with my babies. My cousins are a ridiculous handful, but man they are precious. Once we went to leave her house it hit me - I'm leaving tomorrow, and I am going to miss them so much. It felt like I wasn't going to cry until my grandparents walked up to the car to talk to me and let me know that they will always be there for me, and always love me. "Take care of youself" is what both of them said, "Call us if you ever need anything, if you have a problem or get lonely, we will be there"
Today is my last day here and I'm afraid that there is not going to be enough time to do all the things I need to do and see all the people I need to see. There has to be enough time...
Til later loverlies <3
On another note: it really bothers me when people get really jealous when they aren't even with you. I called this kid immediately after you know I knocked it into my head that oh wait, yeah I'm single this sucks and his reaction was infuriating. Instead of being supportive he was just awkward and kind of mean. You know why? Because he doesn't like the idea of me being with other people. I fucking hate that. Oskhar was just like that for wayyyy too long.
Well anyway, I went to my grandmother's yesterday to see her for the last time before I leave. One of my uncles was there with his wife and his kids and they gave me a present I felt unfit to accept. Well I spent a big time talking to my family, and for the rest I played with my babies. My cousins are a ridiculous handful, but man they are precious. Once we went to leave her house it hit me - I'm leaving tomorrow, and I am going to miss them so much. It felt like I wasn't going to cry until my grandparents walked up to the car to talk to me and let me know that they will always be there for me, and always love me. "Take care of youself" is what both of them said, "Call us if you ever need anything, if you have a problem or get lonely, we will be there"
Today is my last day here and I'm afraid that there is not going to be enough time to do all the things I need to do and see all the people I need to see. There has to be enough time...
Til later loverlies <3