dusting off ye olde ell jay
Between orangerful being back and posting a ton, and the fact that, while I find tumblr endlessly amusing, it is not doing it for me in terms of conversation... I have decided to come on back to ol' faithful. Ol' reliable? Whatever. One of those. Or both.
I kinda can't believe my last entry was only last May. It feels like I've been gone wayyy longer than that. Also pretty amusing that that post was a summer to do list and I did exactly one thing on it in 8 months, lol. I got a job! I work at Macy's now and it's pretty okay. Back in August I thought it was really great and amazing, but after the holidays... I mean, as far as places to work go, it's pretty high up there, but I guess I am not AS in love as I used to be. Still, we get treated pretty well and the store manager is legit the best manager I have ever had. EVER. She's always giving us food and throwing us parties and doing stupid things that boost morale and she's so super nice. On Black Friday she went around to all the cashiers and brought us all bottles of water. Which seems like a small thing, BUT IT MEANT SO MUCH YOU HAVE NO IDEA. Considering when I worked at Big Lots our store manager got an allowance to buy us food on the holidays, but just kept it all for himself... this is pretty flippin' amazing.
As far as school goes, I applied for SCAD last year, and I was "accepted" but not able to enroll until I paid an enrollment fee, which I had no idea had to be paid up front and with no fin aid of any kind and which was also $750 so HAHAHAHA that didn't happen. So, whatever SCAD. Today I applied for Moore, which is up in Philly. I had heard of them from a friend in school, and then I happened to get a postcard for an Open House in the mail and ONE OF THE GIRLS ON IT WAS WEARING THE SAME MASS EFFECT SHIRT THAT I HAVE. SO NATURALLY, THIS IS THE UNIVERSE TELLING ME SOMETHING, RIGHT? But yeah, I never went to the Open House cause my dad crapped out on me, and it's actually not my first choice, but because of the snow today they were waiving the admission fee so, hell, why not, right? I'm still looking at Ringling, and MICA as a fallback. I just miss school so much. I HAVE TO GO BACK.
Anyway, screw all that boring personal stuff. We finally got our internet/cable back and I have Netflix again and I've just been going a little crazy! Alex and I have been watching Bob's Burgers AND OMG THAT SHOW. Sometimes there are things I love so much I can't control myself and I just want to curl up on the floor and cry because they are so amazing and Bob's Burgers is one of those things. I also got REALLY into White Collar (OH MY GOD PETER AND NEAL ALSJDLAFJS) and Warehouse 13 (Eddie McClintock is my Kaidan. And Pete and Myka have one of the best friendships EVER) last year. And if you are not watching The Crazy Ones (ORANGERFUL!) I ASK WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU??? And I've been catching up on Supernatural for ethe-real-ity. I'm on 6x04 or something like that, so I haven't quite gotten to anything "new" to me yet. OH. OH. OH MY GOD. I CAN'T BELIEVE I ALMOST FORGOT THIS BUT LAST SUMMER I MARATHONED ALL OF BUFFY AND ANGEL THANKS TO ORANGERFUL AND I SWEAR IT CHANGED MY LIFE. CHANGED MY LIFE!!! And she got me season 1 for Christmas <333 klajdl;jkfdsalfkjd
Alex got me like, a million (six) video games for Christmas: One with Bioshock, Borderlands, and XCOM on it, Bioshock 2 (he let one of his friends borrow both Bioshocks and lets face it, we are never getting them back so he re-bought them for me), Bioshock Infinite, Ass Creed IV, GOTY edition of Dishonored, and Dark Void (he said he thinks I'd like it plus Nolan North). I finished Bioshock Infinite already and... I didn't love it as much of the first one, let's just say that. I really enjoyed playing it, and I'm now in love with Troy Baker, but I'm just kinda EH about the whole Booker/Comstock thing and Elisabeth/Anna and ughhh safkljaf I don't know. I just... kinda called it from the beginning. Or pretty early on at least. Like, oh, Atlas was Fontaine... let me guess, Comstock is Booker, ha ha. And I was joking BUT THEY WENT THERE. You already used that plot twist once, guys. And as soon as Booker mentioned his wife died in childbirth I was like, WELP GUESS THAT MAKES ELISABETH HIS KID! I really like the idea and concept of all the different worlds, but I guess I just wanted to be a little surprised.
And as for the other games... Black Flag is A PAIN IN THE ASS OH MY GOD. I am just so frustrated with it ALL THE TIME. I hate the naval battles. (Hated em in 3 too but at least they were mostly OPTIONAL ugh.) I don't like Edward! There is nothing compelling me to like him. With Connor it was all his lovely daddy issues aslfdjalsfj and with Ezio HE WAS LIKE A CHILD TO ME. You get to see his entire life and jus takljdalfj. But seriously, what does Edward have going for him except he is Haytham's dad, BFD. Also, pirates are assholes! (And also, so 2003, lol. Pirates of the Caribbean RUINED PIRATES FOR ME.) I am also really annoyed at how they simplified the controls. Edward climbs on FUCKING EVERYTHING. Maybe it's me. Maybe I am just bad at running. But God forbid you move him slightly towards an object, BECAUSE HE WILL CLIMB IT.
And I've been working my way through Dragon Age again because INQUISITION. (That is also one of those things that I mentioned before with the curling up and crying because I CAN'T HANDLE ITTTT.) I bought some DLC: Stone Prisoner (which was actually free, yay!), Warden's Keep, and Witch Hunt. Was debating on Golems of Amgarrak but ended up not getting it. I was a little disappointed after Witch Hunt and lost steam. (Morrigan's all WHY ARE YOU HERE? And I'm like... because the game told me to??? I DONT KNOW WHY.) Now I'm on to DA2, and this will be my first time playing with Sebastian, so that's gonna be... cool?
Last thing I wanna talk about is Anders and Justice . There are some things Justice says when you're in the Blackmarsh Undying, dealing with the Baroness, that got me thinking. Mainly:
"I am Justice. I have watched this place and seethed at the wrongs visited on these poor folk, and now I seek to aid them."
"For too long have her crimes gone unpunished! Now is the time to reclaim your freedom!"
So... how is this line of thinking any different from what is going on with Justice in Kirkwall? Anders claims that his anger somehow "changed" Justice, but I just don't know that it's all that true. It's possible that maybe Anders just didn't understand Justice back then, thinking he was some passive thing, but he wasn't that passive in the Blackmarsh. And now seeing how Justice really is, Anders just thinks he's changed, when he really was just that way all along, and now Anders is beating himself up over something that (aside from the saying yes part) isn't really his fault in the first place. So basically, the whole Justice/Vengeance thing is all in his head. Anyone wanna discuss this? Or is this just common knowledge and I'm just really slow? lol.
I kinda can't believe my last entry was only last May. It feels like I've been gone wayyy longer than that. Also pretty amusing that that post was a summer to do list and I did exactly one thing on it in 8 months, lol. I got a job! I work at Macy's now and it's pretty okay. Back in August I thought it was really great and amazing, but after the holidays... I mean, as far as places to work go, it's pretty high up there, but I guess I am not AS in love as I used to be. Still, we get treated pretty well and the store manager is legit the best manager I have ever had. EVER. She's always giving us food and throwing us parties and doing stupid things that boost morale and she's so super nice. On Black Friday she went around to all the cashiers and brought us all bottles of water. Which seems like a small thing, BUT IT MEANT SO MUCH YOU HAVE NO IDEA. Considering when I worked at Big Lots our store manager got an allowance to buy us food on the holidays, but just kept it all for himself... this is pretty flippin' amazing.
As far as school goes, I applied for SCAD last year, and I was "accepted" but not able to enroll until I paid an enrollment fee, which I had no idea had to be paid up front and with no fin aid of any kind and which was also $750 so HAHAHAHA that didn't happen. So, whatever SCAD. Today I applied for Moore, which is up in Philly. I had heard of them from a friend in school, and then I happened to get a postcard for an Open House in the mail and ONE OF THE GIRLS ON IT WAS WEARING THE SAME MASS EFFECT SHIRT THAT I HAVE. SO NATURALLY, THIS IS THE UNIVERSE TELLING ME SOMETHING, RIGHT? But yeah, I never went to the Open House cause my dad crapped out on me, and it's actually not my first choice, but because of the snow today they were waiving the admission fee so, hell, why not, right? I'm still looking at Ringling, and MICA as a fallback. I just miss school so much. I HAVE TO GO BACK.
Anyway, screw all that boring personal stuff. We finally got our internet/cable back and I have Netflix again and I've just been going a little crazy! Alex and I have been watching Bob's Burgers AND OMG THAT SHOW. Sometimes there are things I love so much I can't control myself and I just want to curl up on the floor and cry because they are so amazing and Bob's Burgers is one of those things. I also got REALLY into White Collar (OH MY GOD PETER AND NEAL ALSJDLAFJS) and Warehouse 13 (Eddie McClintock is my Kaidan. And Pete and Myka have one of the best friendships EVER) last year. And if you are not watching The Crazy Ones (ORANGERFUL!) I ASK WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU??? And I've been catching up on Supernatural for ethe-real-ity. I'm on 6x04 or something like that, so I haven't quite gotten to anything "new" to me yet. OH. OH. OH MY GOD. I CAN'T BELIEVE I ALMOST FORGOT THIS BUT LAST SUMMER I MARATHONED ALL OF BUFFY AND ANGEL THANKS TO ORANGERFUL AND I SWEAR IT CHANGED MY LIFE. CHANGED MY LIFE!!! And she got me season 1 for Christmas <333 klajdl;jkfdsalfkjd
Alex got me like, a million (six) video games for Christmas: One with Bioshock, Borderlands, and XCOM on it, Bioshock 2 (he let one of his friends borrow both Bioshocks and lets face it, we are never getting them back so he re-bought them for me), Bioshock Infinite, Ass Creed IV, GOTY edition of Dishonored, and Dark Void (he said he thinks I'd like it plus Nolan North). I finished Bioshock Infinite already and... I didn't love it as much of the first one, let's just say that. I really enjoyed playing it, and I'm now in love with Troy Baker, but I'm just kinda EH about the whole Booker/Comstock thing and Elisabeth/Anna and ughhh safkljaf I don't know. I just... kinda called it from the beginning. Or pretty early on at least. Like, oh, Atlas was Fontaine... let me guess, Comstock is Booker, ha ha. And I was joking BUT THEY WENT THERE. You already used that plot twist once, guys. And as soon as Booker mentioned his wife died in childbirth I was like, WELP GUESS THAT MAKES ELISABETH HIS KID! I really like the idea and concept of all the different worlds, but I guess I just wanted to be a little surprised.
And as for the other games... Black Flag is A PAIN IN THE ASS OH MY GOD. I am just so frustrated with it ALL THE TIME. I hate the naval battles. (Hated em in 3 too but at least they were mostly OPTIONAL ugh.) I don't like Edward! There is nothing compelling me to like him. With Connor it was all his lovely daddy issues aslfdjalsfj and with Ezio HE WAS LIKE A CHILD TO ME. You get to see his entire life and jus takljdalfj. But seriously, what does Edward have going for him except he is Haytham's dad, BFD. Also, pirates are assholes! (And also, so 2003, lol. Pirates of the Caribbean RUINED PIRATES FOR ME.) I am also really annoyed at how they simplified the controls. Edward climbs on FUCKING EVERYTHING. Maybe it's me. Maybe I am just bad at running. But God forbid you move him slightly towards an object, BECAUSE HE WILL CLIMB IT.
And I've been working my way through Dragon Age again because INQUISITION. (That is also one of those things that I mentioned before with the curling up and crying because I CAN'T HANDLE ITTTT.) I bought some DLC: Stone Prisoner (which was actually free, yay!), Warden's Keep, and Witch Hunt. Was debating on Golems of Amgarrak but ended up not getting it. I was a little disappointed after Witch Hunt and lost steam. (Morrigan's all WHY ARE YOU HERE? And I'm like... because the game told me to??? I DONT KNOW WHY.) Now I'm on to DA2, and this will be my first time playing with Sebastian, so that's gonna be... cool?
Last thing I wanna talk about is Anders and Justice . There are some things Justice says when you're in the Blackmarsh Undying, dealing with the Baroness, that got me thinking. Mainly:
"I am Justice. I have watched this place and seethed at the wrongs visited on these poor folk, and now I seek to aid them."
"For too long have her crimes gone unpunished! Now is the time to reclaim your freedom!"
So... how is this line of thinking any different from what is going on with Justice in Kirkwall? Anders claims that his anger somehow "changed" Justice, but I just don't know that it's all that true. It's possible that maybe Anders just didn't understand Justice back then, thinking he was some passive thing, but he wasn't that passive in the Blackmarsh. And now seeing how Justice really is, Anders just thinks he's changed, when he really was just that way all along, and now Anders is beating himself up over something that (aside from the saying yes part) isn't really his fault in the first place. So basically, the whole Justice/Vengeance thing is all in his head. Anyone wanna discuss this? Or is this just common knowledge and I'm just really slow? lol.