ducky

[lost_raindrop]

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i dont want to hurt you anymore. i dont want to see you hurting. specialy if its because of me. i just wish you could understand me. and i wish i could understand you. but that doesnt seem to work. i thought it did.
and with all the great times we spent together. and when i thought our friendship will last longer than forever.
its hard to let go but

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[jess_85]

Doing what for me....ending our friendship of like 3 years!?!?!? If you do this, it should be because it is what you want. I am really sorry for not being a supportive friend, but I can not support this when I know this whole thing was based on trying to get me out of your life. We could not even talk on the phone because it was considered a "bad" thing, and it was a bad thing because if you talked to me...then that must have meant that you were in love with me or something. All I ever wanted was to be your friend. Why that was such a bad thing I will never know.

I also want you to be happy....I truly do. I know it does not seem like it, but I do. I will be the first one to admit that if it was someone that did not feel threatened by me and could accept the fact that we were friends, then it would have been a lot easier for me to accept this too. It is harder for me though, especially since that someone did not ever want me to be near you at all, but I guess that is what you wanted too.

Why couldn't you just be open with me more? I admit I was not open with either, but that was because you never told me anything...so I did not know that something was wrong. I thought everything was fine and that things could not be better. If you would have just told me that something was wrong, then I could have done something about it. We were such good friends that all I even wanted to do was meet you and just hang out...and have fun. The last thing on my mind was jumping all over you, especially for the first time ever meeting you...but I guess you just did not want that.... I dunno.

You have no idea how much this is killing my soul, but like I said..if this is what is going to make you happy..then do whatever it takes to make you happy.