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Ever feel like you were a conditional friend. One that people only saw as a friend when they needed them. I seem to feel like that all the time. I have gone through a lot of friends it seems and a lot of people that I really cared about were only around when they needed me for support, sure there is the good few that I know that isnt true. One in particular that although we drifted apart I knwo it was nothing like that, I mean we drifted but it was more just because of conflicting interest then anything else. But there is so many out there that I made sure I was there for them when they needed me but yet I have sat here so many times feeling alone. So either I have a poor judge of friends, or people are just are just that selfish. I do maintane though that are a few who have always been there for me, and I feel no need to name names because I know those people know who they are. I guess this is just a rant to the people out there who go to people for help when they need extra support and then as soon as you get you are out of there never considering maybe that person who just helped you might need the same help from you. Or maybe it is just a rant to remind my self that in this world you cant care about others..... but I know I will never be able to do that.