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Well as an atempt to make becca happy, as she has requested I post more I have come to post. Hmm what is new, well I am apparently moving this weekend, which sucks cause well it is only like 4 days away and I have exams and work this week. So pretty much all that is happenng is I have more stress then I really want to deal with and I cant do anything about it. Oh an to top it off mom has told me that they arent gonna get cable at the new house which means justine and I will only be able to watch movies, which REALLY sucks! SO yea, umm James has been living here for awhile, and somedays i like it and other times it really sucks, cause mom seems to be trying to mold to what he wants, and it is screwing and me justine. Justine seems to be getting in and outta trouble, which really worries me cause I dont want her in trouble she is usually such a good kid. And now for the first time I am actually afraid of her getting into serious truoble. Lately I have found myself feeling kinda depressed, which sucks cause I dont know what to do about it other then maybe ignore it but does that ever help the problem? I habe gotten close to bex again which makes me happy, cause for a while we seemed to drift apart which sucks, cause she is like the only person other than simon that I have that I can trust. They are always there for me and I have a feeling they always will be. I just want everything to work out well. If nothing else school is going well I have an 80 something adverage. But then it hit me last week, that at the end of this year, people that I have been friends with for three years, people who I have seen almost everyday, who I thouhgt made a big difference in my life, are gonna be gone. I mean most of them are going off to university, and the odds are I will never see them again. The only thing I can be sure of is that I will see Simon, but it kills me to think that I wont see Becca ever again after this year. She has been one og those people who have alway been there for me, and she has made a huge difference in my life. I really hope that we dont loose touch after high school, and we could talk it to death now but the only way that we are going to know for sure is to actually get to that point and find out. But for now I am happy to know that I am a part of her family, not only to her but also to her family. And I have Simon who loves me, and hopefully I will always have Becca too.