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Today was a good day at work.
I love being at work and taking charge of situations.
I guess all around I like taking charge.
Having authority. Knowing things.
Im just competative or something.
So in other news, schools a big fucking joke right now.
Ive got pretty much all A's, minus AP enviro which I
will have a B in, which is good enough for me :).
Im into college, I dont really care anymore.
Not to sound like a shit head, but I just find it
kind of offensive that I was put in dick around classes
because my fucking counselor was so lazy to fill
out a sheet of paper saying I didnt have to stay all day.
Whatever, I'll do what I need to so I can pass
because I find pride in most A's...but otherwise Im just
ready to get the hell out of here.
Im going up to NYC the 2nd weekend in MAY...pretty siked about that.
I should go shopping for summer clothes and College stuff.
I need to loose weight for prom, but that wont happen.
I tell myself that everytime something big comes along, and I end
up starving myself the week before the event, and my body
ends up a fucking mess and I feel like crap so it isnt even worth it.
Luke and I are going to the movies tomorrow, should be fun.
I work all weekend. Im dreading Saturday though, I have to
work with this girl who was a complete bitch to me, and 1/2 the
people Ive talked to about her think shes a Bitch Dyke. So
I dont feel too bad anymore. I just dont feel like putting
up with her shit at 8am on Saturday morning. I wish my job
paid more, $8 bucks an hour had a lot more impact on my
pay checks... $7 dollars bairly pays for my addictions.
I've been thinking a lot about Luke and I.
Were really doing it.
Were moving into college together.
I remember when we first starting dating, 23 months ago 2morrow...
we'd talk about how happy we were to have each other.
And how we wernt ever going to loose it, and how much
we wanted to be together. After about 2 months Luke told me
he wanted to go to college with me and be with me, and if
anything ever happened to me he'd take care of me always.
I liked that Idea.
I still do to tell you the truth.
I think thats why Im not too worried anymore about college.
I used to have a skewed mindset, and think " Yea were going
together, but whatever happens happens." NO.
It's happening.
Were going to be together, and he really is going
to be the one, the one who takes care of me
and is always there and always will be.
I'm down.
Completely down with that.
Because I believe that I have found some sort of safety net.
I find comfort in never having to look for love again.
Actually, thank god I dont have to go through
that search again... beause 9 times out of 10 I got
my heart broken, and thats always a bitch.
I will be happy if luke goes through life never
having his heart broken, and If I can prevent that
from happening, then I will :).
So there, Im not scared anymore, and I really dont care.
AND hes trying to make a deal with me to get a black lab
puppy instead of a chuahauhua....so at least that means
hes considering a dog for us to get sophomore year when we
move off campus!!! :)
Well Ive done enough writing for about the rest of the year.
Bed time, Or something like that.
<3333 Steffani
I love being at work and taking charge of situations.
I guess all around I like taking charge.
Having authority. Knowing things.
Im just competative or something.
So in other news, schools a big fucking joke right now.
Ive got pretty much all A's, minus AP enviro which I
will have a B in, which is good enough for me :).
Im into college, I dont really care anymore.
Not to sound like a shit head, but I just find it
kind of offensive that I was put in dick around classes
because my fucking counselor was so lazy to fill
out a sheet of paper saying I didnt have to stay all day.
Whatever, I'll do what I need to so I can pass
because I find pride in most A's...but otherwise Im just
ready to get the hell out of here.
Im going up to NYC the 2nd weekend in MAY...pretty siked about that.
I should go shopping for summer clothes and College stuff.
I need to loose weight for prom, but that wont happen.
I tell myself that everytime something big comes along, and I end
up starving myself the week before the event, and my body
ends up a fucking mess and I feel like crap so it isnt even worth it.
Luke and I are going to the movies tomorrow, should be fun.
I work all weekend. Im dreading Saturday though, I have to
work with this girl who was a complete bitch to me, and 1/2 the
people Ive talked to about her think shes a Bitch Dyke. So
I dont feel too bad anymore. I just dont feel like putting
up with her shit at 8am on Saturday morning. I wish my job
paid more, $8 bucks an hour had a lot more impact on my
pay checks... $7 dollars bairly pays for my addictions.
I've been thinking a lot about Luke and I.
Were really doing it.
Were moving into college together.
I remember when we first starting dating, 23 months ago 2morrow...
we'd talk about how happy we were to have each other.
And how we wernt ever going to loose it, and how much
we wanted to be together. After about 2 months Luke told me
he wanted to go to college with me and be with me, and if
anything ever happened to me he'd take care of me always.
I liked that Idea.
I still do to tell you the truth.
I think thats why Im not too worried anymore about college.
I used to have a skewed mindset, and think " Yea were going
together, but whatever happens happens." NO.
It's happening.
Were going to be together, and he really is going
to be the one, the one who takes care of me
and is always there and always will be.
I'm down.
Completely down with that.
Because I believe that I have found some sort of safety net.
I find comfort in never having to look for love again.
Actually, thank god I dont have to go through
that search again... beause 9 times out of 10 I got
my heart broken, and thats always a bitch.
I will be happy if luke goes through life never
having his heart broken, and If I can prevent that
from happening, then I will :).
So there, Im not scared anymore, and I really dont care.
AND hes trying to make a deal with me to get a black lab
puppy instead of a chuahauhua....so at least that means
hes considering a dog for us to get sophomore year when we
move off campus!!! :)
Well Ive done enough writing for about the rest of the year.
Bed time, Or something like that.
<3333 Steffani