So I was checking my email and this story was on the yahoo homepage yesterday and I clicked on it and when I read it it sounded all to familiar
( Read more... )
Thanks Darcy. But here's the tricky party...I can love him endlessly and I can't understand why I would. I know that I can't change him and he can only change himself if he really wants to. And he's told me before that he's happy with the way his life is going and that makes me sad because to strip it all down, he's a lazy man who lives off of people. I'm doing all the work to keep this relationship afloat, financial & emotional; and I'm tired. What's even worse, for me at least, is that he's proposed to me (in a not so romantic/perfect way; a very lazy way actually...he put the ring in my face and said nothing like I knew what he was thinking & he went back playing his PS2, that pissed me off and I gave him the ring and said "when you are really ready to propose to me like a man in love should, then you know my number" & I left.) Oh, and whenever I do "leave" him he always finds a way to make it MY fault and make ME feel guilty about leaving him & I yell at him explaining that it's his. So as of right now we are "together" & we still love each other but on my part I feel so lost in a deep canyon that I don't know if I can get out of this emotional stressful, physically abusive relationship...(another red flag, he does physically abuse me but only if I hit him first...stupid right?)
DUMP HIM!!! You sound miserable, and if he is happy being a nothing, then let him be a nothing, but don't slow your life down. And, when he tries to make you the bad guy, just remember that you aren't. You are the one that has been keeping things going when he wouldn't. You can keep going like this, especially with abuse. I'm worried about you now. Just get away from his before the relationship gets any worse. <3
You're right, so right. And I've known that I should've ended the relationship since I've moved to Austin. What's funny is I've trained my mind into thinking that I couldn't get any other guy to love me and I was playing a fool. Everyone has told me to leave him & I guess I was just being rebellious not doing so but I just can't take it anymore. I'm taking my friends advice and I'm sticking to my guns. ...pray for me.
But here's the tricky party...I can love him endlessly and I can't understand why I would. I know that I can't change him and he can only change himself if he really wants to. And he's told me before that he's happy with the way his life is going and that makes me sad because to strip it all down, he's a lazy man who lives off of people. I'm doing all the work to keep this relationship afloat, financial & emotional; and I'm tired. What's even worse, for me at least, is that he's proposed to me (in a not so romantic/perfect way; a very lazy way actually...he put the ring in my face and said nothing like I knew what he was thinking & he went back playing his PS2, that pissed me off and I gave him the ring and said "when you are really ready to propose to me like a man in love should, then you know my number" & I left.) Oh, and whenever I do "leave" him he always finds a way to make it MY fault and make ME feel guilty about leaving him & I yell at him explaining that it's his. So as of right now we are "together" & we still love each other but on my part I feel so lost in a deep canyon that I don't know if I can get out of this emotional stressful, physically abusive relationship...(another red flag, he does physically abuse me but only if I hit him first...stupid right?)
Reply
You sound miserable, and if he is happy being a nothing, then let him be a nothing, but don't slow your life down.
And, when he tries to make you the bad guy, just remember that you aren't. You are the one that has been keeping things going when he wouldn't.
You can keep going like this, especially with abuse.
I'm worried about you now.
Just get away from his before the relationship gets any worse.
<3
Reply
You're right, so right. And I've known that I should've ended the relationship since I've moved to Austin.
What's funny is I've trained my mind into thinking that I couldn't get
any other guy to love me and I was playing a fool.
Everyone has told me to leave him & I guess I was just
being rebellious not doing so but I just can't take it anymore.
I'm taking my friends advice and I'm sticking to my guns.
...pray for me.
Reply
I will pray for you.
Reply
Leave a comment