AMERICA... its a dick thang
my cough again is worsening. my hangover all most killed me today as I forgot to look either which way while crossing a parking lot. apparently some where in my gut instinct, something thinks that throwing out my hands towards a speeding car will help deflect any injuries....
at the bar last night I watched roaches crawl about the walls, while the people were rocking billiard along with the fooz- SOME one siting next to me was explaining to me the California dream. some ting about the sun shine, the breeze, something about an SUV. as if I don’t already understand. maybe I don’t appreciate it as much, I mean im not from st.louis... who knows.
some one else sat down next to me and decided to tell me all about the military. he usually does this, so it didn’t really come to me as a shock, actually I was quite relived, I got to learn some thing other then never drink bud light on tap that night. as his sputtering began to slow down he ended up rationalizing his job to me. it got kinda bad. I almost felt sorry for him, by then I didn’t. he kept on saying that all his job was, was an objective and a pay check. I didn’t even reply... I mean im not gonna argue with military, the brains have been scrambled, no longer is their any logic. it all becomes a mess, its in the food, of the air or.... I just kept telling dude that he didn’t want to go out there, that it wasn’t good to be in uniform right now, and that it just aint worth the pay.
objectives.....
on my birthday at my flat with my birthday whiskey
repetitively during the corse of last week or so. as the days go by, and the sun rises and sets, and the breeze moves the marine layer about, recently, I just dont feel like I fit. some one wants me to move to Texas, some one else wants me to go to phoenix, I got these pictures today and just keep thinking about Spain, at the café I talked with some one visiting from there. this week end, in LA at some party, while moving past all these skinny hipsters, with their hair, well, I just realized that I don’t really want any of this. I much rather kill my time at the university library in Barcelona reading again and again about Orwell killing that damn elephant....
in the end none of this is what I sat out to say, I need to go back to bed or raise my blood\sugar level or.....
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