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hes the love of my life.
and it hurts soo bad when i think of him with his ex's or girls he used to like or talk to.
how the hell will i know if its going to last. i love him so much and i am so scared of being hurt. i honestly KNOW i wont find anyone like him. were just alike and can be incredibly stupid and ourselves in front of eachother. i cant be 100% myself in front of anyone else. i never have been able to. and the way he treats me is just the way i want it to be. no different.
i asked him if he thought kaila was pretty.
he said yes.
and that makes me sick to my stomach. i really feel like throwing up. wtf is wrong with me??
i feel like im not skinny enough or pretty enough when i compare myself to other girls he used to talk to.
one day im scared hes gonna find someone who is prettier and skinnier, and leave me.
and you know what? no matter how fucking skinny i get, the scary part is that i wont think im skinny enough at all. and that sucks
why cant i be confident?
why cant i know he wont do anything like that to me?
no matter what he tells me i still dont believe it. will i ever?
and it hurts soo bad when i think of him with his ex's or girls he used to like or talk to.
how the hell will i know if its going to last. i love him so much and i am so scared of being hurt. i honestly KNOW i wont find anyone like him. were just alike and can be incredibly stupid and ourselves in front of eachother. i cant be 100% myself in front of anyone else. i never have been able to. and the way he treats me is just the way i want it to be. no different.
i asked him if he thought kaila was pretty.
he said yes.
and that makes me sick to my stomach. i really feel like throwing up. wtf is wrong with me??
i feel like im not skinny enough or pretty enough when i compare myself to other girls he used to talk to.
one day im scared hes gonna find someone who is prettier and skinnier, and leave me.
and you know what? no matter how fucking skinny i get, the scary part is that i wont think im skinny enough at all. and that sucks
why cant i be confident?
why cant i know he wont do anything like that to me?
no matter what he tells me i still dont believe it. will i ever?