I think it's safe...
I haven't posted on here in a long time, and right now I don't have much time to type every detail out, with such a short time limit before I have to go to work.
Where to begin? I avoided posting on here so I can have Chris and Allahia to stop reading it. Since it's been inactive in so long, I'm pretty sure nobody is going to read it now. Thank goodness.
I've been really down, hell extremely depressed since I've taken news, and that it has come to light, that these two are dating. I've defended and fought and said no they aren't dating for a year, I even had my growing suspicion while I was with Chris. But now, they've been dating for 2 months now. It has turned and torn my world completely in two. I've lost so much motivation to do things, but grown some motivation. Weird? Yeah I know. I told him, the day after I saw him a few weeks ago that I don't want them together, not her, please not her. But he said that she has said no to dating him, but then finally said yes. She must have been growing feelings for him for a very long time, and denied them to my face. Thanks for lying, I appreciate it. Because you just don't cave in eventually and just date someone you know I was struggling with, fight for, shed blood and tears for this person, in hopes that we can finally have something with each other again.
It's gone..I don't feel anything except for hate and rage. I hate her like there is no end of the world, and I hate him, I finally can admit that I hate him. I'm just so upset that she could do this to me, they can do this to me. You both don't know what love is. Cruel, heartless, disgusting people you both are. I can never be the same from this day, from the day I knew that you both were together. I wake up with wanting to kill myself each and every day because I don't want to feel anything anymore. I hate feeling the feelings I am receiving. I just wish I never knew.
She saw me bend over backwards for him. She KNOWS I'm in love with him. Does she not realize that he's still in love with me? Or maybe what he says is love is a lie. I will never forget these words, and they do burn me til this day, and made me realize that I really, really need to just disappear.
Chris:" If you mess this up for me, you will never hear or see me again."
That's when I knew that he's fighting for her. She makes him happy, and visa versa. He never fought for me, ever in his life. He's going to ruin her. I see it, and don't say that I won't feel bad for it. She entered herself into a love triangle, when she should be the woman with the head on her shoulders, smart and intelligent as she my be, she's the most stupidest human being I have ever seen. The last time I saw Chris, she had some nerve to say, "I know I'm the last person you want to talk to, but I wanted to let you know that I love you and I am sorry about the way things turned out." No, you don't love me, you don't know how to be a true friend, you were never a friend. You will forever be an enemy to me, another person on the shelf of people I absolutely despise.
Since time is ticking..I must go. I have so much more to say..I hate to say this but now when it comes to dating, I just realized I was meant to be alone, because I am so beyond broken, and of recognition, there is nothing left for me to give to anyone..for the rest of my life...
Where to begin? I avoided posting on here so I can have Chris and Allahia to stop reading it. Since it's been inactive in so long, I'm pretty sure nobody is going to read it now. Thank goodness.
I've been really down, hell extremely depressed since I've taken news, and that it has come to light, that these two are dating. I've defended and fought and said no they aren't dating for a year, I even had my growing suspicion while I was with Chris. But now, they've been dating for 2 months now. It has turned and torn my world completely in two. I've lost so much motivation to do things, but grown some motivation. Weird? Yeah I know. I told him, the day after I saw him a few weeks ago that I don't want them together, not her, please not her. But he said that she has said no to dating him, but then finally said yes. She must have been growing feelings for him for a very long time, and denied them to my face. Thanks for lying, I appreciate it. Because you just don't cave in eventually and just date someone you know I was struggling with, fight for, shed blood and tears for this person, in hopes that we can finally have something with each other again.
It's gone..I don't feel anything except for hate and rage. I hate her like there is no end of the world, and I hate him, I finally can admit that I hate him. I'm just so upset that she could do this to me, they can do this to me. You both don't know what love is. Cruel, heartless, disgusting people you both are. I can never be the same from this day, from the day I knew that you both were together. I wake up with wanting to kill myself each and every day because I don't want to feel anything anymore. I hate feeling the feelings I am receiving. I just wish I never knew.
She saw me bend over backwards for him. She KNOWS I'm in love with him. Does she not realize that he's still in love with me? Or maybe what he says is love is a lie. I will never forget these words, and they do burn me til this day, and made me realize that I really, really need to just disappear.
Chris:" If you mess this up for me, you will never hear or see me again."
That's when I knew that he's fighting for her. She makes him happy, and visa versa. He never fought for me, ever in his life. He's going to ruin her. I see it, and don't say that I won't feel bad for it. She entered herself into a love triangle, when she should be the woman with the head on her shoulders, smart and intelligent as she my be, she's the most stupidest human being I have ever seen. The last time I saw Chris, she had some nerve to say, "I know I'm the last person you want to talk to, but I wanted to let you know that I love you and I am sorry about the way things turned out." No, you don't love me, you don't know how to be a true friend, you were never a friend. You will forever be an enemy to me, another person on the shelf of people I absolutely despise.
Since time is ticking..I must go. I have so much more to say..I hate to say this but now when it comes to dating, I just realized I was meant to be alone, because I am so beyond broken, and of recognition, there is nothing left for me to give to anyone..for the rest of my life...