don't even read it, its not worth it...
hey,
i know my updates are few and far between, but you guys can deal with it. Because you guys love me.
I believe that me and jason are going to prom together. I'm so effing excited to go. I'm so excited. Jasons really different then anyone else i've ever been with. I mean he's actually, like good for me. And he actually cares about me, and not just himself. *Sara you know where i'm comming from*. I want everyone to come to prom and have a sweet ass time. me, cass, sara, and nicole are all going, and were gonna rock out like no other. I'm gonna make jason do his 'tommy dance'. he,he.
I can't wait for school to be out. I'm so damn tired of all this drama, and all this stress, and all these problems, and all this shit. I'm so ready to forget about so much shit. I wish i could shed it and regrow it, like skin. i wanna just forget everything thats ever happened to me, and just start all over. Have all new memories. I just wanna forget every tear i ever fucking shed, and i never wanna cry again. I wanna forget what it feels like to cry. to be alone. to be so fucked up that you hate yourself. you hate being with yourself. fuck all this shit. i just wanna be happy. But its never gonna happen, so i'm just gonna shut up while i'm ahead. "fight the future and fuck the past... lalalala"
"what i've felt, what i've know,
has never shined threw in what i've shown,
never free, never me..."
my bull shit is done.
....love....
i know my updates are few and far between, but you guys can deal with it. Because you guys love me.
I believe that me and jason are going to prom together. I'm so effing excited to go. I'm so excited. Jasons really different then anyone else i've ever been with. I mean he's actually, like good for me. And he actually cares about me, and not just himself. *Sara you know where i'm comming from*. I want everyone to come to prom and have a sweet ass time. me, cass, sara, and nicole are all going, and were gonna rock out like no other. I'm gonna make jason do his 'tommy dance'. he,he.
I can't wait for school to be out. I'm so damn tired of all this drama, and all this stress, and all these problems, and all this shit. I'm so ready to forget about so much shit. I wish i could shed it and regrow it, like skin. i wanna just forget everything thats ever happened to me, and just start all over. Have all new memories. I just wanna forget every tear i ever fucking shed, and i never wanna cry again. I wanna forget what it feels like to cry. to be alone. to be so fucked up that you hate yourself. you hate being with yourself. fuck all this shit. i just wanna be happy. But its never gonna happen, so i'm just gonna shut up while i'm ahead. "fight the future and fuck the past... lalalala"
"what i've felt, what i've know,
has never shined threw in what i've shown,
never free, never me..."
my bull shit is done.
....love....