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just me being frustrated again... i know that no one really feels like hearing my shit, but its gotta come out sometime.... and you know what... fuck it... its comming out now.... i can't effing take this....
I've got that whole 'tired of everyone, and everything' thing going on again.
i'm tired of working at 'bob evans', theres like no effing point. i make like the same amount of money every day. and hardely any customers come in. its like 2 hours of customers, and 3 of sitting on my ass and wishing i was at home. which is really saying something, because i'd pretty much rather be any where then home... grrr.... i'm so damn frustrated...its the same shit every effing day....
i'm tired of this whole living with nicole thing. her and her effing mom are driving me nuts. now i fucking know why men can't stand fucking women. all they do is bitch and complain. thats it. bitch about every fucking thing... i really love nicole, but i'm starting to want to kill her in her effing sleep... i just need to be a n effing hermit and live by myself... i cant' stand living under someone elses rules.... i like being in control of myself.... not this parental bullshit... grrr....
i'm tired of everyone being so damn happy, and wanting to smile in my face.... take your damn happiness somewhere else... because i don't give a fuck.... i'm miserable now, i was miserable then, i'll be miserable in the future, so how about you go shove your happiness down someone else's throat! how about that... fucking bastards....
i'm tired of being such a damn chicken shit.... i'm tired of being all 'i'm afraid of rejection' wahhh.... why can't i just walk right over be like 'i like you, and were dating now, ok?' and walk away? noooo.... i have to be all 100% sure about every effing thing, before i even ADMIT i like him. and fuck asking him out, you'd have to torture my retarted ass for days to get me to do that. because i'm a fucking cry baby. (for those of you who are confused as to who i'm talking about, comment and i'll fill you in)....
i'm tired of my mom stalking me, i left your house for a reason bitch, leave me the fuck alone... how about you go spend a few more weeks with your sadist boyfriend and leave me the fuck alone... because i don't give a fuck anymore, i just want you to fade away like everyone else does.... i don't even care anymore....
i feel a little bit better now.... sorry for anyone who had to read that shit....
....love....