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So it's been almost about a month ago since I wrote in here, but to be honest, I've got nothing to say. That's unfortunate isn't it? Let's all bow our heads.
I don't really think I have anything to say now but I felt like rambling about my insecurities and all of that nonsense. I'm going up for a promotion and I'm very nervous. I always have this fear that I will NEVER be able to handle myself. To be honest, I'm surprised I even got the job I have in the first place, because I was shaking the whole time I was doing the interview. That always happens to me.I get like a gripping defeatist attitude and I can't ever get out. That's why I never made any auditions I tried to do on my musical instruments... I'd always choke up and not be able to play. I barely was able to talk in the first interview. I don't know how I'm going to deal with the second one.
I'm trying to think of all the positive things about me and why I would be good for that job. I'm not new to the company, I'm already knowledgeable... the position is data entry and I can type mega fast, and I'm good at eyeing mistakes/formatting issues. It said attention to detail is required, and I think I have that. I'm a fairly business oriented person... Why am I on the LJ then? you ask. WELL, because my stupid coworker that I sit next to won't let me do ANY work unless she doesn't want to do it, so I only have ONE job and that's already done. And if it's not I always spread it out so that it looks like I'm busy for more than just an hour and a half a day.
The new job, I was told, would be taxing, and a constant stream of work. Which is what I am HOPING for, I really do think that I'd be good for this position, at times. I keep asking my supervisor I have now for more work and she asks my supervisor who is also the VP and supervisor for new the position, and so she knows that I'm bored. I hope that will persuade her to see that I'm serious about being focused on this. Other times I feel like I'm going to get knocked down because I'm not the oldest, and I haven't had many jobs and I don't have a lot of skill or experience. Bah.
And then my friend won some passes to meet a band that I really love and happen to be going to see with her on Friday, and I'm a little melancholy about it because she's taking her sister with her to meet them, when we always used to go, but the reason she's not taking ME is because I'm going to be hanging with our friend, who's really MY friend, just her friend by association, who can't go meet them either. But she never has, and I have, and I feel bad because I want her to meet them, cuz she deserves it.
UGGGGHHH. As Charlie Brown would say. I feel like sticking a fork in my face.
But on the other hand. Nip/Tuck is on tonight and that show makes me happy.
I don't really think I have anything to say now but I felt like rambling about my insecurities and all of that nonsense. I'm going up for a promotion and I'm very nervous. I always have this fear that I will NEVER be able to handle myself. To be honest, I'm surprised I even got the job I have in the first place, because I was shaking the whole time I was doing the interview. That always happens to me.I get like a gripping defeatist attitude and I can't ever get out. That's why I never made any auditions I tried to do on my musical instruments... I'd always choke up and not be able to play. I barely was able to talk in the first interview. I don't know how I'm going to deal with the second one.
I'm trying to think of all the positive things about me and why I would be good for that job. I'm not new to the company, I'm already knowledgeable... the position is data entry and I can type mega fast, and I'm good at eyeing mistakes/formatting issues. It said attention to detail is required, and I think I have that. I'm a fairly business oriented person... Why am I on the LJ then? you ask. WELL, because my stupid coworker that I sit next to won't let me do ANY work unless she doesn't want to do it, so I only have ONE job and that's already done. And if it's not I always spread it out so that it looks like I'm busy for more than just an hour and a half a day.
The new job, I was told, would be taxing, and a constant stream of work. Which is what I am HOPING for, I really do think that I'd be good for this position, at times. I keep asking my supervisor I have now for more work and she asks my supervisor who is also the VP and supervisor for new the position, and so she knows that I'm bored. I hope that will persuade her to see that I'm serious about being focused on this. Other times I feel like I'm going to get knocked down because I'm not the oldest, and I haven't had many jobs and I don't have a lot of skill or experience. Bah.
And then my friend won some passes to meet a band that I really love and happen to be going to see with her on Friday, and I'm a little melancholy about it because she's taking her sister with her to meet them, when we always used to go, but the reason she's not taking ME is because I'm going to be hanging with our friend, who's really MY friend, just her friend by association, who can't go meet them either. But she never has, and I have, and I feel bad because I want her to meet them, cuz she deserves it.
UGGGGHHH. As Charlie Brown would say. I feel like sticking a fork in my face.
But on the other hand. Nip/Tuck is on tonight and that show makes me happy.