Still Learning....
So this week has been a learning experience for me......
ever since i was little my family always thought of me as the baby. the little kid. who would never grow up. and i would always be dependent on my parents. and that i would need them for everything and i will never go anywhere in this world becuase of that...
for 11 years i have worked my ass off to get straight A's/B's. for one simple reason. to get out of here. to go to college somewhere outside of this city and for that i would have to be away from my family.
this week my mom left to mexico for about a week and a half.....
well if you knew me you know....i have never really been seperated from my mom for such a long peroid a time (once when i was little but it was nothing.) and yeah i usually had my brother and my father here... my house always had someone here with me.
lately theyve all been working and im finally getting to see what is like to be alone and by myself. especially this week.....
and what ive come to realize.... is ...its not easy.
i had dinner with vince last night and we began to talk about what the future holds and he asked me why i wanted to get out of vegas......the truth is... i dont want to leave because i hate them and thats what they might think..but thats not it..
since ive been little everyone tells me the same thing. im so dependent on my mom and dad. and i dont know how to live on the streets and i will never leave.....and i have come to BELIEVE THEM.
i didnt work so hard just to stay here and play it safe.
this is a test for me. my character. my dreams . my life. and i have the desire to succeed.
i want to get out of here to prove to my family and myself that i can do it
i know its not gonna be easy and i know i will miss my parents and vince so much but if i dont do it i will hate myself for not at least trying to get out of here.
i would rather try and fail at it then to not have done it at all....
Andrew