Lets Play This Game Called " When you Catch Fire"
sOoOoo updates hmm......lets do a list....
Cought Me Off Gaurd - so i think it was on friday i talked to kelly and we just started talking about how unhappy i have been and just the things that have been happening and how i just really am unhappy with alot of things....right off the bat i seriuosly thought she was gonna say some cheezy thing like "oh im sorry" and itll be over but no she actually cared enough to talk to me and give me some really good words of encouragement and you know im really more unhappy then i should be..i mean im kinda bumbed but im atcually okay.......
Lets Go! or Not - Im realizing when i talk to people they tell me to wait for a relationship and it'll happen and you know right now im like okay ill wait.... but im not gonan fucking care about it anymore....if i have a relationship with someone i like cool! and if i dont oh fuckin well.....becuase i dont need that in my life right now anyways.....
Too Cool - okay so when i talked to kelly and we have both lost our share of freinds...and i started to think about every good freind i have and how many i have let go..... but is it really me? i mean i love to keep in touch and i guess some freinds that left me wer just too cool but thats not going to stop me becuase this year i want to make as many new freinds as possible becuase freinds are what keep me sain and so even though i will make new freinds dont think i will forget about my old ones....i will always put the ones i love and my best freinds first...
I Like Myself On most Days - Lately i havent...... i dunno i guess i love to make people and others happy.... but does that neccisarrily mean i have to like myself? no beucase i dunno some days i just dont like the things i say and do..... there are so many things i love about myslef but on the other hand there are few things i dont like about myself and those stick out....well to pretty much all of that i talked to someone yesterday and she told me why hate myself if i could die tommorw and i would be unhappy with myself. so even though i have few things about myself that i dont like oh fuckin well becuase theres alot more good things about me than there are bad right?
Well im done with this post...and if you didnt like it..uhh..fuck you! =)
Andrew